computerbob1's Journal

It is snowing today and cold so my outdoor project is postponed to a warmer day and I look forward to slowing down and taking time to sit down and write a journal to collect my thoughts and express my thankfulness for what I have. But not before I do, I watched Kim Komando’s Video of the day.  I put a link in my “About Me” part of my profile here on DS so each day there is a new video that often inspires and cheers me up to start each day. Click it each day to watch something Kim and her staff have selected for some family friendly viewing.

If you missed the video for March 14, 2008, you can catch it on You Tube at http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1k08yxu57NA&eurl=http://www.komando.com/videos/

I’ve seen it before; it’s about Paul Potts an unassuming cell phone salesman who can sing opera that brings tears to my eyes every time I see it. Watch the video and have courage and confidence that we can overcome the things or at least manage the things that bring us to DS by looking for positive examples, supporting each other here and working a program that is designed to bring stability to our lives.

I am feeling a 6 on my scale of bipolar and working my program. I am managing to stay upbeat after a stressful February; thanks to support here and from my friends and family, I made it without a scratch. Today I have reached 106 days on my goal to not repeat my isolating pattern that results in weeks and months of retreating into my own world away from friends, family and job. It is something that I couldn’t do for more than 30 days at a time last year.  I admit that I have had some down moments and slept in a few mornings but I am limiting it and watching to prevent it from becoming excessive or more than a few hours down time.

I know that there is no cure for bipolar or some of the illness that brings us here to DS but I am determined to find stability. After so many years of wasting my life, I am trying to live now each day one day at a time.  I believe that when we are working our program, we attract good people and good things into our lives!

I take responsibility for managing my illness. At times my illness blinds me to act responsibly so I appreciate your support. If you have grown weary of me, I'll understand if you chose to back away.

I put myself in the hands of a higher power.  Grant me the Serenity to accept the things I cannot change... Courage to change the things I can and the Wisdom to know the difference... today I will begin living one day at a time.

Being kind to others starts at home by being kind to you!  Enjoy a great weekend!

Group Hug!