maureenD's Journal

I truly feel like I am losing my mind. I wish i could figure this whole thing out. Why this is happening to me, the way that it is. Why can't it just be easier?

I went to the doctor the other day, because I got pink eye..not fun.

While I was there I told him that i was a week and a half late ( now 2 wks late).

I told him I'd taken a test and it was negative, and without batting an eye, he's like oh, well I'm sure you're not pregnant then.

Wow, thank you, real nice you know? No explanation, nothing just, oh well sucks for you...

I just wish i understood why this keeps happening to me.

If I'm not pregnant, then why am i late again. There has to be something wrong, and no one seems to see it but me. It's like last year all over again, I'm going to skip 2 cycles, get pregnant, miscarry, and then maybe someone will start to notice that this is not a healthy pattern...

I'm just too tired to fight anymore, with my job, my family, this, everything, I'm giving up. It's too much for me, I'm just too tired.