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Out in VA unloading and then I reload for WY, kind of a strange load for a change! Just happy and enjoying another wonderfull day in recovery! I was thinking while I was driving last night how I ever managed to get anywhere driving while I was an active gambler? All those times where my last dollar was gone and running behind because I had spent to much time in a casino. Now days it is easy to make my destinations with plenty of rest, now that I am regaining lofe back without endless gambling detours! Thank God for DS and GA for getting me thus far. I continue working on my daily readings and meditations, it seems to be what works for me to keep my feet on the ground! For today I will not gamble and that is enough!
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Sitting in Chicago,IL waiting to get loaded for home!!!! Should be empty and at the house by noon tomorrow! I have been catching up on some journals and doing some reading. Not really much happening for me today. Just striving to be GF for one more day and that is enough!!!
Hope all is well with everyone! It works if I work it!!!!
Wow I can't believe it has been this long since I journaled. Since I have been back off vacation, things have been moving pretty fast. Nothing like life in the left lane! I have not been home much, some companies cancelled some trucks on our plant this week so I had to leave early and cover for someone else, but it was fun going on a different route for a change. All I know is it is too hot in Eagle Pass, TX. I should be home friday afternoon and hopefully get to my GA meeting. I was passing through Oklahoma this week on the way back north up Hwy 75/69 and OMG they have way more casinos thant they used too!!!! The ones that were allready there are 4 times the size they used to be. (Goes to show who's making the money in that deal) I had stopped at a truckstop in OK on the Choctaw res. and when I went in at 4:00A M I saw the people in there, I thought that used to be how I was? OMG It is the first time it dawned on me how I must have looked like a zombie. I stayed in the store watching people come through the door for a while. Everyone that was headed for the casino looked as if they had no idea anyone else was even there. They would fling open the front door, not even as much as look where they were going and right through the store almost running someone over and bang through the casino doorl. I felt bad for those I saw in that state, because it reminded me of those dark and dreary days I had put myself through in the past. On the other hand I think that was good for me to see a firm reminder of what that way of living becomes! I am now 143 days GF and I am not about to wreck it now! For today I will not gamble and that is enough!!!!
Well I guess I rambled on enough! Hugs to you all!!!!! Brad
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I love to hear you ramble, it shows you are living life and not letting an addiction rule your life. 143 days is so awesome, I am so proud of you and the way you have taken back your life. Hope you make it home in time for your meeting.
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You are doing so GREAT ---- DS has been a life saver to me also, I am Sooooo Happy for you.
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It is no wonder my life was a mess while I was gambling....and it is so much better now.....and along with you, just for today, I will not gamble....Hugs, Dianne
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Amen - thank GOD - hugs to you today - Suzi
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