sharon429's Journal

   Wow! I haven't posted in five months?  I can't believe it!  It has been a very busy time.  Things are just now beginning to slow down.  Mom has been gone one year Saturday!  I thought I would be ok to work today but I can't seem to stop crying.  I'm definitely not in any shape to try to fix anyone else today.  Please keep me in your prayers.  I have alot going on.  I may be becoming a grandma.  My daughter has missed 2 periods but the urine tests are showing negative.  She goes to the dr a week from today and wants me to go with her.  We put flowers on Mom's grave Sat.  and stayed at the cemetary a little while.  It was a beautiful day somewhat windy but it was warm.  I miss her so much.  I wrote a poem to express my thoughts and feelings.

It Can't Be A Year

It can't be a year.  You were just here.

Without you I feel so alone. No more can I talk to you

on the phone.  I keep thinking this is just an awful dream. 

I'll soon awake to the telephone's ring.  I'll hear you're voice

when I answer the phone.  I will no longer feel alone. 

Then I come back to reality.  I can't call you on the phone. 

So once again, I feel alone.  Then the Master reminds me

Child, you are not alone for I am with you.  Your mother is

happy healthy and carefree.  I then smile to myself and realize

that I am not alone.  My Master walks with me and this world

is not my home.  Someday I'll see Mom again but for now I must

take her memory and hold it dear.  For it has already been a year.

I didn't realize that I hadn't written since March.  A lot has happened.  My mother-inlaw did pass on March 10.  She went very peacefully.  My oldest son didn't see her while she was in the hospital but he was at the funeral.  It was a very nice service and my brotherinlaw is doing fairly well.  Memorial day was especially tough  and so was Mother's Day.  My oldest son didn't come down to see me and it was both a relief and a dissappointment.  It is so stressful when he is around because of the way he acts.  I won't go into it. 

 My daughter and my youngest son were with me.  My 5 year old boy picked out my Mother's Day card and of course I had to pay for it.  He had me to buy one dozen red roses and a chocolate Mother's Day cake!  I can't believe he picked that out! He is such a blessing.  My daughter and son inlaw got me a beautiful planter with begonias and I have managed to keep them alive.  My oldest emailed me a joke for Mother's Day. 

T-ball season started in May and they have one more game left.  My youngest son is playing T-ball. 

We are also in the process of buying and selling a house.  I got another raise and more responsibilites.  Busy life but very blessed. 

I'm looking forward to a Ladies retreat in Branson Missouri with our church in July.

Blessings to everyone, love prayers and support.