SageM's Journal

Wasnt in a good mood today until I went out in my garden in the evening.  It is a perfect fall day and it was really nice being outside.  Today was a day when I wished I had more work to do in the garden which I think I have only thought one other time.  I always enjoy my garden but some days when it is in need of some work and I dont feel very well but want to keep it maintained is a day when there is A LOT to do and it seems never ending.  Some time this month my brother is going to dig out my garden a little farther away from the house so my climbing rose bush stops getting sick so much.  He had said he wasnt going to do it but after I got through with pulling weeds and trimming up my white rose bush I went into his room where he and a friend were playing video games and said, "I love you." and hugged him and he said,  "I'm not digging!"  I tried telling him that digging it out a few feet further from the house would make my red roses prettier he said they are already pretty so then I tried the tactic I knew would work.  I said something like. "All day long I am in pain and mad that I am sick so with all of the time on my hands I could think of ways of making you miserable."  I said this smiling by the way just joking with him as my little brother.  He said, "We'll cross that bridge when we get there."  But finally I convinced him to do it sometime this month!  So hurray. See threatning people works better than paying them.....haha.  But then again I can not remember why he said yes so perhaps I am wrong and maybe he is just nice.  Also I figured it would be good to ask him with a friend in the room so he had to be in a good mood!  haha.  I know my baby brother!

Ok hands hurting.  Maybe it is because I am not using the stand thing my dad got us.  It is nice and for the computer so the computer is up a little higher while it rests on your lap.  It is pretty and brown and blue.  It isnt metal or anything.  Like a really firm cushion.  I like it.  Ok hands needing me to go bye bye.  So bye bye

So I have been kind of busy lately.  Just because there are not enough hours in my day lately.  Waking up late and going to bed early.  On a new sleeping pill called Rozerm.  I had sworn off sleeping pills but my doctor is concerned and wants to get it fixed which it should be.  Certainly sleeping would make things better.  Basically it is supposed to be a strong melatonin.  So far nothing but it takes about two weeks for the full affect and it has only been one week.  So we'll see.  I just want to go to bed between 9 and 10 and get up at 6 or so.  That way i'd have time for more things and WHEN I GET WELL then i'd have time to exercise, play with furry babies, get a part time job, get GED and write.  That would be nice.

Am feeling a little better though.  Legs are functioning a lot better although they need improvement yet.  Am up more doing things even though tasks like writing and remembering are still kind of hard.  But I got to read like 10 pages in a book I am reading today!  I havent got to do that in many many months.  Which is sad concidering I used to read books a day or week depending on the book and what else was going on.  Plus I am remembering a little more....Oh and I can breathe!  I accidentally ran a few steps the other day to my garden and I wasnt holding my chest and needing air!  Before I couldnt even walk a little fast!  so HURRAY!

Ok I stayed up over an hour late for this.  It is 10:16 depsite what DS says.  Off I go.  Bed and kittens await.

Today was fairly good.  I woke up and my dad was here for a little bit while Fawn went out with a friend for awhile.  Had a lull in the day for awhile trying to find something to do and since my mind was crap this morning it didnt leave much.  To be perfectly honest I would rather have my mind back than my body because even if you have your body back if your mind is no where to be seen the body is useless.  So mind please come back!  Of course I want both back though!

So like I was saying before I had to get creative so I decided to stain 3 of my art boxes.  So my dad dug out the stain, brush, and thick rug like table cloth we use to protect the table.  All three boxes are completely stained at this moment they just need to dry.  Then I will check for dryness tomorrow, put the hardware back on and wait until we get some better stuff to put on top of the stain to protect it.  The stuff we have now is kind of old so it would make the boxes fell rough if I used it.

Then Andy stopped by to tell us bye.  He is going to Texas for school.  His church is sending him there to learn things about mission trips.  He likes going to them and went to Puru a few years ago.  My mom said after he left that while he was talking to her the whole time he was staring at me.  I was in the kitchen doing my boxes!  So he hugged me bye and went out in the garage with my dad.  Then brian shows up.  Brian is this guy who is in his 30's and owns his own lawn care business.  My dad talked to him awhile back and now he keeps dropping buy and asking me out.  He assured my dad it is a friends thing and to get me out of the house because of my health.  However is insistence says otherwise to my mom and my dad.  Plus he was talking to Andy about girlfriend.  (Andy asked him if he had one because they were talking about houses and jobs etc)  Brian said nope and that is why he is here to see about a redhead!  M. E. ME! Andy kept changing the subject but that is what he does when he is uncomfortable.  Now I have to try and avoid this guy!  I am not sure if he still lives down the street or if it is just his sister who does but either way that is hard!  He also takes care of my sister Addies lawn and lawns around here.  GRRRRR

On top of that this guy Travis wrote me this month.  Long story short he is another guy I do not want bothering me.  I was friends with him for maybe a month before he went away and only because he was friends with Zack who did not have a lot of friends and always seemed nice so I was nice to him and we talked every now and again, and mostly about his rabbits he raised for fairs.  Now I have this guy Travis in love with me or something and he wont get the message even though there is no message to get because I have been perfectly and bluntly clear on things.

Ok well wish me luck on the Incurables Program tomorrow.  (Monday)