lindacma's Journal

Well I am doing ok today.. just lonely and missing lou.. its hard some days and by fri I am so tired form work and other duties during the day.. I am goingto go to greif couseling first week in April, i feel i need to vent to someone..and my son will also go to a child couselor.. its hard everyhting is setling in and its time to talk about it and cry and get it out of my system.. i ned to get normalcy back in my life again, i have lost over 50 lbs since dec, but that is a good thing, i neede to loose a few pounds anyway.. my husband would be so happy about that.. but i am afraid i will loose toomuch weight and be a twig again.. I really want to meet a nice man and have 1 more child like Lou and I planned on.. but i am not gettng any younger, I am 42.. I have a lot of support form my family and friends but not much support form his family.. they just dont talk to us much.. which kind of hurts somewhat.. but never was that close with his family.. anyway life will go on.. and it will .. i am trying so hard to make life what it should be.. just have to work hard to do it...