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Of all things to be upset about now - my daughter simply cannot pass the History part of the OGT testing at her high school. She has all her credits to graduate..yet cannot get a 400 on this test. She has been getting 399..392..scores such as this, but no 400. She has one more time to take it and if not, she will not get a diploma by Ohio guidelines. She told me she cannot walk across the stage and be handed a certificate instead of a diploma in front of her friends, which is what they want these kids to do that can't pass. Her school has a range of 382 on this test..she has been in the 395+ scores, yet her school average is low on it. Quite a few won't get their diplomas due to this. She has a practice packet, gets online to practice there..is in a tutoring class..but cannot pass with a 400. The test consists of times, dates, places, names of History issues..and it's never been her class to excel in.
So here we sit - after 4 years of high school, we're down to her possibly not passing an OGT History exam and cannot take part in a tradition of graduating with her friends. Her option would be to take the test again in the summer...if it's passed then, she'll get her diploma. If not, then she would have to take the GED tests.
Amazing...she did great in the Math, Science, Reading, and English part...so because she can't remember History - this. There are students who are 4.0 in GPA and are failing one part of the 5 parts of the OGT........
Am I wrong for wondering how this is helping a teenager who's about to start a new life as an adult? What does this do to a child with already low self esteem issues? Or even one with high self esteem? Her father has abandoned her and now her school..the state of Ohio..is saying you can't celebrate with your friends after all you've done for 4 years in a graduation...
I'm just so livid...I pray to God that she passes this last time..it's her last chance. I'm almost beyond words....
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VERY busy day at work today. Has me wondering if I'll ever quite get it all. I'm really starting to see how rude people really can be - it's amazing. No matter what I might be doing, there's someone that doesn't seem to see I can't get to them just this second and they just start talking as if I'm at their beck and call. There's drug reps coming in throughout the day and pretty much want you to stop everything..and the phone rings off the hook. I've always worked in a factory environment but being in the public eye like this is somewhat overwhelming. I'm almost feeling like I'm more in the way than I am doing any good. I have lots to learn about medications and how scripts are wrote/called in/mailed away..milligrams...medical terminology...generic forms of drugs..insurance codes...I have SO much to learn. I was finding myself very aggravated today due to not getting some co-pays right..nor did I understand how to order X-rays correctly thru the doctors. Everyone has been very patient with me and have actually been a huge help..they usually help out when needed, but I feel I'm asking too many questions. I do give all of them kudos on working with the newbie like they do! 
Deep down, I find this work SO interesting..and I am trying so hard to make a good impression. Nothing says I will stay in this office forever, for I have learned anything can happen. BUT - I plan on being like a sponge and absorbing all I can in the way of medical office practices all I can. I want to get my hands on anything and everything that has to do with this field and this is the opportunity I needed to get it. There are openings at the hospital all the time and if anything opens up that's more money and more advancement, I can eventually apply for it and have some clout.
I just wish I had more confidence in myself - I really do. Being the new girl with super low self esteem and confidence isn't a good mix. I try so hard and will keep on trying. I think if I just didn't have to come home and be alone so much it would be better. If anything, this job sure has me missing someone in my life to talk to about my day. I sure do miss that. 
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Think of managements' choice to hire you. They hired you, because they saw they could count on you to get the job done, and that your personality would fit in with the company. Training or formal education are one thing but having the right attitide (which you do) and ability to get along with people, are having the battle when management looks at the best choice for who they hire. Obviously they choose you over other applicants. Find confidene in that, you can do the job. Although it is new, lots to learn, might be the right career path............don't be so hard on yourself. It takes "time" and effort to find your comfort zone in a new job, new people and new environment. Rely on your abilities, and not so much towards the emotions. You will do fine.
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Not sure if this will help or not, but I always have a legal pad handy. I would always take notes on "how to do things". I have always found it helpful to jot down notes and when I have a chance I rewrite it to make sense.
I completely understand how frustrating it is to start out new and be pulled in several directions at one time. We tell our drug reps, 1st if they want to speak to the doctor they have to set a luncheon. We only do them on wednesdays. They have to bring lunch for the entire office. If they show up at the window asking if we need anything, we tell them to have a seat and we will get to them when we can. Patients should always come first.
Phones, you can't control. I am sure it would be nice to yank them out of the wall at times :)
Unfortunately some people tend to forget how frustrating it is to be new. They act like you can do it all and do it now! Hang in there, it will get better. Once you have your routine down you will look back on the first few weeks and laugh.
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Cut yourself some slack - you'll do fine. I can tell just from your writings that you have a good head on those pretty shoulders. In time the job will become a cakewalk for you.
Still adjusting to the new job - busy, busy place. Slowly getting to know everyone bit by bit. Lots to learn about patient intake/flow/medical issues. I'm learning that the general public can be ruder than they should be concerning a doctor's visit. When you're asked to fill out a general update form, don't look at the girls behind the administration desk like they've just asked you to pull out your own tooth..lol..it's a formality for medical records and to make sure the correct insurance/medicaid is being billed properly. We don't do it because we enjoy it.....;)
I'm also finding out that working in an environment with individuals with terminal illnesses is very hard to watch sometimes. I see the couples coming in together and feel how much they care for one another. I also see and hear my co-workers talk of their marriages and relationships and most of them seem very happy. My social anxiety is at an all time high during times when all the girls are together, talking of their husbands and small children. I can't join the conversation much and feel a little out of sorts - and it's made me feel very lonely at times.
I guess all in all I've been feeling the lonliness a lot lately. Maybe because spring is around the corner - always seems like a time of promise. I just wish I had the strength to feel stronger on my own 2 feet so when the day comes that I feel ready for a relationship that it's an easy, but slow pace to get it. I'm harder on myself than any other person in my life has ever been - and I'm trying hard to not be this way. It's hard to change a pattern you've always been in - but I'm sure gonna try.
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I think we have cabin fever and this is when we can't wait to get out. "I'm lonely too". Yoou aren't alone.
You sound like you are doing a great job. Keep up that good work my friend.
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I am with you in waiting for spring. I bet those women talking about husbands and kids would value your input--you've been there, done that. Sooner or later they will be clamoring for teen advice; or you will be the one they call when they find out (or are willing to admit) that their marriages are not a rosy as they appear.
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I agree with Holly. I said it before. I can guarantee that we are not the only ones who have had trouble behind the scenes.... Our just came to the surface sooner. Look at how many people are on Divorce and Breakup. Atleast we can say that we have been through the rough and very hard times. We can learn from our mistakes and become extremely happy people in the long run.
You have every right to feel the way you do around all these new people. I have seen it so many times before. People only tell you what they want you to believe. No one wants to admit that there is trouble in paradise.
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I think you are doing a great job.I get lonely too.I know what you're feeling.
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I am so sorry.I wish your daughter luck.
joybells
Sounds like the school needs to concentrate on that part of the curriculum. I hope she makes it--her scores are so close. It's kind of a shame how much the schools have to focus on these tests--How does it prepare you for real life? Looking back, the most useful class I EVER took in high school was one I was ridiculed about--typing.
holly3093
God, I hope she passes too!
My son is almost 17, a junior and way behind in credits because of his IDIOT father. I wish I knew what to say on this one, but this will probably be me in a year :(
KimN3
I'll say a prayer for you both. Hopefully..she will get it this time. I get standardized testing but it should not be the end-all-be-all for graduating.
Good luck :)
Che2
I agree with Cherie, this has got to be so frustrating. I mean 399? Come on. My thoughts and prayers are with you, my daughter may not graduate either this year and I'm working hard with her, but accepting she might have to stay behind. It is going to be tough on my daughter if she fails.
My thoughts are with you dear.
ChrisB