upforthecraic's Journal

  Hi everyone,  I am here today to find some new friends to help me get through one of my toughest patches in life.  I feel so alone latley even though I have 2 beautiful children and a husband.  Sometimes I feel I only stay alive for my children.  I am in a very dark place now and I have no-one to turn to for advice.  I have no friends or family to help me.  My husband doesn't understand just how I feel and right now he just seems to be looking after his needs. 

I love holidays and sunshine - something we don't get alot of here in Ireland.  I am facing my worst time of year - winter in Ireland.  Lots of rain, darkness and miserable weather.  If I can get through the next few weeks with the help of friends then maybe I will get my confidence back and start a new life independent of anyone.  

Most of the time I am quite happy but I cannot do "Alone".  I need people around me - people who are happy and enjoying life.  I love to go clubbing and release loads of my built up energy on the dancefloor.  I am happiest on the dancefloor!!!  

Please don't read this and think I am a sad miserable person as when you get to know me I am quite nice and a good person to know.    

Maybe the next time I write I will feel better.  Here's to my new future!!!!!!!!