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Tuesday, September 2, 2008

Hey guys, I'm back I suppose, its been a while since I last was on here. I wanted to try and figure things out and all I did was get more confused... Things haven't been perfect in my life by any means. Not that they should be, I mean there really isn't any such thing in this world as perfection, but my life's not even close. lol... oh well I'm not stressed out too much right now. I just got my fish and hopefully I'll get my rat this week. My fish's name is Alpha, because he's a beta fish, and my rat's name is going to be Snow, thats from two of my favorite songs ever and I'm going to put their lyrics here...

I am a Rock

A winters day
In a deep and dark december;
I am alone,
Gazing from my window to the streets below
On a freshly fallen silent shroud of snow.
I am a rock,
I am an island.
I've built walls,
A fortress deep and mighty,
That none may penetrate.
I have no need of friendship; friendship causes pain.
It's laughter and its loving I disdain.
I am a rock,
I am an island.

Dont talk of love,
But I've heard the words before;
It's sleeping in my memory.
I wont disturb the slumber of feelings that have died.
If I never loved I never would have cried.
I am a rock,
I am an island.

I have my books
And my poetry to protect me;
I am shielded in my armor,
Hiding in my room, safe within my womb.
I touch no one and no one touches me.
I am a rock,
I am an island.

And a rock feels no pain;
And an island never cries.

Snow (Hey-oh)

Come to decide that the things that I tried
Were in my life just to get high on
When I sit alone
Come get a little known
But I need more than myself this time
Step from the road to the sea to the sky
And I do believe that we rely on
When I lay it on
Come get to play it on
All my life to sacrifice

Hey oh listen what I say oh
I got your
Hey oh now listen what I say oh

When will I know that I really can't go
To the well once more time to decide on
When it's killing me
When will I really see
All that I need to look inside
Come to believe that I better not leave
Before I get my chance to ride
When it's killing me
What do I really need
All that I need to look inside

Hey oh listen what I say oh
Come back and hey oh
Hey oh look at what I say oh
The more I see the less I know
The more I like to let it go... hey oh
Woah oh

Deep beneath the cover of another perfect wonder
Where it's so white as snow
Privately divided by a world so undecided
And there's no where to go
In between the cover of another perfect wonder
Where it's so white as snow
Running through a field where all my tracks will
Be concealed and there's no where to go
When to descend to amend for a friend
All the channels that have broken down

Now you bring it up
I'm gonna ring it up
Just to hear you sing it out
Step from the road to the sea to the sky
And I do believe what we rely on
When I lay it on
Come get to play it on
All my life to sacrifice

Hey oh listen what I say oh
I got your
Hey oh listen what I say oh
The more I see the less I know
The more I like to let it go... hey oh
Woah oh

Deep beneath the cover of another perfect wonder
Where it's so white as snow
Privately divided by a world so undecided
And there's no where to go
In between the cover of another perfect wonder
Where it's so white as snow
Running through a field where all my tracks will
Be concealed and there's no where to go

I said hey
Hey yeah
Oh yeah
Tell my love now
Hey
Hey yeah
Oh yeah
Tell my love now

Deep beneath the cover of another perfect wonder
Where it's so white as snow
Privately divided by a world so undecided
And there's no where to go
In between the cover of another perfect wonder
Where it's so white as snow
Running through a field where all my tracks will
Be concealed and there's no where to go

I said hey
Oh yeah
Oh yeah
Tell my love now
Hey
Yeah yeah
Oh yeah

Well I should update some of the things that I'm trying to accomplish, well as for the cutting except for a little bit about two weeks ago I hadn't cut in 4 months... and that's a proud thing for me, so I'm going to put the meter at 95% because I did cut... as for finding help or making people happy neither have happened so I'm not moving either of those... that's all I have to say I think this journal is long enough... peace

UPDATED GOALS

Stop Cutting

Progress 95%

Encouragements: 7

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i want a fish! ill name him... slugg :D

KrusH
oh, and amazin job with the cutting :D or not cutting i mean haha

KrusH

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bad day

Monday, July 14, 2008

So basically my parents caught me sayin that I was stoned and stuff and then like they come up to me and said that they thought I should move out the house... so basically I could be homeless in a few days... well sorta homeless, I have a home I just don't know how I'd pay for things... :P and then this morning I decided to overdose on medication and then I just got really sick and then I wanted to OD again but some friends brought me back up

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