gemini6's Journal

Geez I have written three of these and somehow it doesn't keep them I did press save journal entry as well. I am glad to have found somewhere to discuss the different medical problems with others.  I will continue to ck. in and try to help.  Not feeling so well this evening from cutting my pain meds down to about a 1/3 of what I am used to for chronic abdominal pain and lower back and hip pain from a herniated disc.  It is a catch 22 it seems feel bad from one way or the other but I think I will begin to feel better when my system starts to clear out the toxins but I have serious cramping from scar tissue from my previous four surgies but my natural endorphens haven't been able to kick in and do what they do normally because of the meds.  And then eventually the meds don't work as well either so one must stop and try again without and see how I faire.  It is a vicious cycle but life is one worth living I still have chidren to help out if I can and to I might be able to help others.  So I am trying but I am really lonely on my journey it seems I am but here alone but depression is part of detoxing too.  I am well aware of that.  It is something I have done before.  Thanks for listening and being here whoever may read this. 

G6