nicolel1's Journal

Do things ever really get better?  My brother who is 29 was diagnosed with testicular cancer last year.  He went through chemo (had a horrible time) and then was just said to be in remission in April.  His stomach has been hurting for a few days and he went to the ER. They kept him thinking it was appendicitis, but his CT scan looks like the cancer is back and bigger.  He has a daughter who will be 2 in December and a lovely wife.  I just don't understand all the hardship we are all put through. Is there ever any reward or relief?  My eyes hurt from crying so much.  My mom died 7 years ago at age 48, shouldn't that be enough? Why does it seem like there is always a dark cloud over our family?  Sorry for the whining but I just can't comprehend all this.