newme3's Journal

My life has taken a change for the better and a lot of progress has been made since I wrote last.  My emotions are still going up and down.... anxious, happy, sad, exited, guilty, relieved.... so many feelings to process at times : )

I read the best book, ESCAPING TOXIC GUILT BY SUSAN CARRELL and it has helped me imensely deal with guilt that I should never have carried for years... a must read if you are feeling guilty!

After arguing for months about who stays in what house (we have a rental that is rented for now), he has agreed to let my son and I stay in the main house, he has agreed to let me have the now 65K from the sale of the other house, and he has agreed to child support amount IF I declined alimony.  Anyhow, we did quit claim the houses to each other and we did get the agreements notarized so he didn't change his mind yet again! 

We are still living in the same house and it's so bizarre but it will help make the transition easier I hope.  He seems to be very clingy to my son which drives me nuts (he is supposed to be the adult!).  He is only home on the weekends (works till very late again which is reason I wanted out in the first place) but then he sits in my son's room while he plays video games and many times my son has to ask him to get out.  

I have been trying to focus on the future and although it's scary at times, I am finding peace and joy and am finding that his "threats" were just "empty threats".