mindy027’s Profile

Open Families & Friends Of Addicts

i believe my husband has a drinking problem. he denies it most of the time but sometimes during a moment of clarity he will see it that way. what he will admit to as that he uses alcohol to self medicate....duh, doesnt that make it a problem then?

Open Anxiety

i have gone through so much in my life for so long, that too many things seem to overwhelm me. current stress does not help.

Treatments

Klonopin Working / Worked

this med helps relax me most of the time

Lamictal Working / Worked

this med helps stabilize my moods

Positive Thinking Too Soon to Tell

im trying to be more positive and to let things go. it isnt always easy

Crying Somewhat Helpful

this is a way i express my hurt, emotions, and frustrations. sometimes i cant help it. i do not cry for manipulative purposes, i cry because i need to let it out. i just wish my husband did not get angry when i cry sometimes

Open Anger Management

my bipolar husband has the knack to bring out the ugliness in me.

Open Bereavement
Type: Loss of a Partner/Spouse

A couple of years ago i lost my boyfriend of over 11 years to alcoholism. I had given him an ultimatum and unknowingly to me, he tried to quit cold turkey and his body couldnt handle it. he died from a stroke. he was only 42. i still have feelings of guilt and anger. i also miss him so.

Treatments

Crying Somewhat Helpful

cant help it sometimes when i think about him

Getting Angry Somewhat Helpful

i am so angry that he wouldnt seek help. i am angry that he left me. i am angry that i couldnt do more.

Psychotherapy Working / Worked

my therapist has his hands full with me

Remembering Working / Worked

i think about him everyday....even if it is for a minute. i havent gone to his grave yet. i know i should go at least once...but it has been too difficult for me to do so. at least he is buried with one of my little eeyores.

Talking Working / Worked

it helps..but it doesnt take the loss away

Time Working / Worked

i dont ever want to forget him...but the pain does get a bit easier

Open Depression
Type: Clinical (Major) Depression

life really sucks right now. on top of financial issues. i am caring for somebody who makes life very difficult for us. i love him so, but he is bringing me down. i am sad so often and would love to just stay home at times, curl up into bed and just cry my eyes out. things seem so bleak right now. i am not confident in my future. i just want my husband back to how he was when we met.

Treatments

Cognitive Behavioral Therapy Working / Worked

therapy is helping me deal with my problems...my issues..and to make me a stronger person. he is also trying to teach me to take care of me...but honestly i dont know how. all i know is how to help others. nobody takes care of me..including myself.

Lamictal Working / Worked

helps stablize my moods, but i am still so fricken sad. i just want to be happy.

Positive Thinking Not Working

i try so hard...but things are just getting worse

Open Self-Injury

i hate that i do this!!! i dont do it too often, but still. sometimes you just need to feel pain..and try to bleed out your pain.

Open Sexual Abuse

i was molested by my grandfather between the ages of 4-12. when i asked him years later why, he basically blamed me. my mom didnt know till about 7yrs ago. she probably buried it in her mind. who knows if that happened to my mom or my aunt or not. she said no. anyway, he's been dead for several years, so i dont have to be reminded of things everytime i see him. the abuse was and is a part of my life. i believe it helped screw me up.

Open Bisexuality

not really an issue...but it is a part of me.

Open Family Issues

my hubby and i have a difficult relationship. i love him and care about him so...i just wish things were easier and that there were fewer problems.

Treatments

Family Therapy Too Soon to Tell

i think i am more willing to make this work than he is. i could be wrong, but sometimes his actions say otherwise.

Music Working / Worked

to just fade away.......

Talking Not Working

our "talking" usually leads to fights..sometimes much worse than others.

Open Insomnia

every so often i go through periods where i have difficulty falling asleep or i cant stay asleep. sometimes it is both.

Treatments

Ambien Working / Worked

this works most of the time

Reading Working / Worked

sometimes this works too

Open Financial Challenges

my financial situation sucks right now. i hate having to pinch pennies, cutting corners, and not being able to just go out and buy something for myself. i hate having to worry all the time about things and this is just more crap for me to deal with.

Treatments

Budgeting Somewhat Helpful

i try to be as responsible as i can

Filing for Bankruptcy Working / Worked

this helped me get out of the hole 2 yrs ago..however i am now living from paycheck to paycheck

Open Family & Friends of Bipolar

my husband is bipolar. life can be really difficult and stressful at times...actually most of the time. i feel like i have to walk on eggshells all the time, look out for signs of an episode, deal with major mood swings, etc...the list goes on. i feel he drinks too much and he doesn t always take the best care of himself. i do so much for him and i am so drained. i hate having to do everything, i hate that he isnt responsible for taking his own medication and i hate all the fighting

Open Panic Attacks

i get these every so often...but they seem to be getting worse.

Treatments

Klonopin Somewhat Helpful

Patience Somewhat Helpful

it sucks to have to ride it out

Positive Thinking Somewhat Helpful

wishing them away doesnt really help

Psychotherapy Working / Worked

i have a great therapist

Open Healthy Sex

Open Female Sexual Issues

Open Hepatitis C

i joined this support group for a dear friend of mine on here.

Open Healthy Relationships

i am married to a bipolar man. life can be really difficult with him.

Open Alcoholism

my hubby just admitted to being an alcoholic after years of denial. i am so hoping he is going to get the help he needs...if not it will destroy us!