GoAwayMS's Journal

Went to the orthopedic guy today and he confirmed that I did tear 2 ligaments in my ankle back in December and since they didn't really do anything about them because I had my first big attack and they focused more on that, I have scar tissue where it healed. He gave me a cortizone shot and scheduled me for some physical therapy. If those don't work, he'll have to do some orthoscopic surgery on it.  UGH!

Then we went on to my MS neuro for the check on why I am so dang tired and foggy headed. He seems to think that either I am just doing too much and might be aggrevating old symptoms, or I have developed antibodies already and the medicaiton isn't working. But, he scheduled me for a new MRI of the brain this Thursday am to see if the Rebif is working like he wants it to.  Now I am a little scared.  What if it isn't??  He said if it isn't we may do steroids and we will talk about Tysabri.  I read that Tysabri has wonderful results but the whole brain infection symptom (and especially the risk of death part that comes with it) makes me a bit nervous! 

I hate being a downer to those around me and I have a hard time admitting that things aren't perfect.  I've always been a pleaser and I figure everyone else has their own issues to deal with and don't need mine too.  

I know people have much worse things to deal with than I do and I thank God for all the blessings in my life!!  I really do! I am just feeling sorry for myself today.  I hate that!!