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Journal Entry for September 20, 2007 Mood

Thursday, September 20, 2007

I didnt write yesterday, was busy then I was so tired.Today I am haveing a very bad day, cant stop crying, I hurt so bad, sometimes I wish I could just break my back and be in a wheelchair, better yet dead!

The doctors piss me off so bad, I know theres got to meds out there that will take the pain away, but they refuse to let us live pain free, cause then they will have no money coming in. We would all be to happy and out doing things that we miss cause of our pain! To think that we could be pain free but the doctors are scared of getting in trouble, so I guess I should be pissed at our goverment for scaring the doctors.

Thank god for this journal,, have a great place to vent!!! I guess I will go lay down for awhile and see if I can get my back to stop throbbing.

I will be back later, licia

Hug licianne

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You do sound a bit, no a lot, down at the moment. I wonder if it another side effect of the Suboxone? Hope that you are able to work through this time and find something that will help you. From what I understand from both my friends (I have 2 with FMS - one quite bad the other not so) there is no cure, the pain is something that you will have and to take something strong enough to get rid of it .... well you would end up in a permanent coma. So hang in there and do wht you can to find ways of managing it.

Hathani