MamasChild’s Profile

About Me

Was an at-home caregiver to my Mom for five years; first dementia and feminine issues (which later may have caused her passing), then hospital bed at home the last 13-14 months or so of her life on a feeding tube - against everyone's advice. I was always fighting the tide - alone without my Mama's advice. At the same time, also caring for my Alzheimer Dad's needs in another location juggling Mom's Aide schedules with his so I could get into his apartment. He later broke his hip and had to be placed in nursing home. In the next few months, he was "okay", and then I watched him go downhill. The week of my mother's funeral, I had to make the decision to put Dad on a feeding tube, too. I never told my Dad that Mama died until six months later, moments after he died. They seemed to be the first words that came out. Emotionally, I'm worse now than when they were alive, and I almost don't care. Then, it was more exhaustion - now it's emptiness, depression and questions of guilt - and the pressure of finances.

Interests

Basically, I've lost interest in most everything. Computer and TV are pretty much it.