EcoGreenWorld's Journal

Hello to any angels who may visit me here.

Today is awful, it's probably the start of the ending of my world..

 Yes, If Loosing Carole was not reason for ending my useless existance then today loosing my job is..

 Oh funny Im not Technically Fired Yet, but Im sure it's a Formality,. Im Suspended today pending the Outcome...

 Yes I screwed up today, I don't know what's wrong with me, I just had had it with the guff work has been giving me all these years,...

 The lady from the office called and was Bitching at me that I need to have my paperwork in the office the next day after the stores, I lost it,.. I said "F-u" that I didn't care.

that's all it takes, she hung up on me, the next call I got was from the Area manager saying I was suspended untill I can have a meeting with the office manager, then demanded I bring in there laptop and printer tuesday when the office reopens, I told her I would not...

Next thing I know the Phone Rang and it was from the man Who Runs the company yes, he's over all my bosses telling me I need to bring in the equipment or he was going to get the Police to come get it.

He says Im not technically fired yet, but he would fire me if he could for saying that word to an employee..

He says i need to talk to the office boss when he comes in thursday and he will get the employees version when I hear is different then mine also, but im sure the dialouge does not matter cause I said that word and that's all that matters, I messed up,...

he says then it will go to HR and someone there will decide if I have my job again or not but Someone who does not even know me is surely going to fire me..

I am unable to get any other work, I for the heck of it filled out an AP for Kmart and have an interview on 6/4 but nothing probably will come of that,.. even though it's nice to dream about working just down the street and having different work...

I applied for Stocking shelves, Ive only done that years ago when I worked for Eckerds, Im sure a Kmart is on a Much larger scale but I probably could figure it out,..

I feel like I just want to go jump off the Overpass in the interstate and rid myself of all this crap and rejoin Carole...

Im so stupid, I don't know why I said it, I don't know why they are acting this way at work either, Proves more that we are just numbers and nothing more,... easily replaceable,....

I asked the lady why she wants me fired so badly she would not tell me...

I will bring back there machines Tuesday morning, and have to Wait till Thursday to talk to the office manager,.. then wait to hear what I know will happen that i have NO job, then I just might if I can stand it by then vanish, I will give everything to Teresa and she will be ok Im sure...

The days will be going slow and hurting,...

   Michael

I called my dad and he says I should accept my Job is over and look right away for another one, I want to think that it is Not over, but I know it probably is,.. I don't want to have another offer if it's Not over though, I had no work scheduled this week as it was, I had my next job on Thursday which it looks like Im not going to that's the day of the meeting with the Boss,..

I scheduled the Interview with Kmart on 6/4 Im not holding onto hopes of really getting that one though, it would be to nice just working down the street from the house,...