Journal Entry for September 15, 2007
September 15, 2007 11:10pm
It was nice to get out of the house today and spend time with my honey's family. It felt nice to not feel alone, and to laugh …
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I am someone who is passionate about life but who doesn't have all the answers. Looking to understand my chronic fatigue. I've always been the optimist and full of hopes and dreams. These days it's hard to keep hold of them.
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Close Chronic Fatigue Syndrome
My bouts of fatigue started out sparatic and lasting 7-8 days. Now I'm ill more than I'm healthy. I'm healthy for 1-3 weeks then fatigued for 2-3 months. So here I am -not able to work for the 1st time in my life, frustrated of trying to convince doctors that my symptoms are real and that I'm not depressed (not yet anyway), scared because I don't know where the money's going to come from. I'm staying at home now. -taking matters into my own hands and trying to make sense of it all on my own.
Treatments
- Reflexology Too Soon to Tell
- I can't tell if it's working. I notice something the day of my treatment but that's it.
- Reiki Not Working
- Funny enough, I have my level 2 in Reiki. However, I can't do it on myself because I don't have the energy for it. and don't want to pay other people to do what I'm qualified to do. Yikes!
- Writing Working / Worked
- would recommend it to anyone. Great tool for personal growth -keeps you connected with your Self, your feelings, helps you understand yourself better
- Massage Working / Worked
- I always feel so good when I do this!
- Chiropractic Adjustment Working / Worked
- Not sure why this helps but it does. If nothing els, the feeling of beeing handled/taken care of feels nice.
- Wellbutrin Working / Worked
- treated the symptoms temporarily but really didn't care for all the horrible side effects, not to mention my symptoms of fatigue came back over time. I am not an advocate of pharmaceuticals unless in an emergency.
- Acupuncture Working / Worked
- Helps during and immediately after my treatment but other than that, I'm not so sure.
Close Healthy Relationships
My common-law spouse is the first guy I've dated that is emotionally unexpressive -the emotional realm gives him the heeby jeebies and he avoids it like the plague. Unlike the man who is visually turned on, I am emotioanally turned on, so intimacy (of every kind) for us leaves me pretty unsatisfied alot of times. Does anyone have any suggestions?
Treatments
- Patience Not Working
- I've tried letting him open up/be emotionaly intimate on his own but I'll be in the ground before that happens.
- Talking Not Working
- He doesn't know how to express himself and so I feel like I'm the only one contributing to our conversations.
- Writing Not Working
- It does help to put my feelings on paper so I understand them better. However; it takes two to make a relationship work. I need to feel like he's participating in a resolution.
Open Healthy Sex
Oh, how I miss spending entire weekends in bed. If only my common-law spouse would only kiss me... Sean is emotionally absent and likes it that way. He's not a mooshy mooshy guy by any means. Which is very difficult for me. Because I'm the nurturing, affectionate, and sensual type. Since women are turned on with their hearts (whereas men are visually stimulated), intimacy on any level usually leaves me unsatisfied. How can someone who is so perfect for me be so wrong for me? Yikes!
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