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Journal Entry for October 31, 2007 Mood

Wednesday, October 31, 2007

My daughter is in the county jail awaiting her sentencing next Monday. I had forgotten that she plead out when she signed the drug court papers, so there is no trial. The Drug Court judge will tell her what is happening on Monday. From what Although this is really, REALLY hard on me and on her too, I am so grateful that she is alive, and not out on the streets doing drugs. That road leads to nowhere fast. They are not kidding when they say our addicts have 3 choices. Rehab, death or prison. I have yet to see a fourth option.

I still have not gathered the strength to really sit and journal about what happened. I am still processing all of this I think. I think this weekend I will sit with my new book that I bought. Maybe I will cook a little something and just relax with my kitty. He gives me such comfort. ALL 24 pounds of him.

For all of you that follow my story, I send love to you all. I need to catch up with your lives and get back here to offer the support that you all so freely give to me...

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EllaBlue - will keep you and your daughter in my prayers. You have definitely been on my mind and I truly do believe that it is a blessing that she is no longer on the streets. I'll be hoping that she sees the light while in prison so that she can get back on the right track. I'm sure deep down that she wants this but I know it's not easy. Perhaps this will actually help her. I'll keep those prayers flowing your way! Take care of yourself!

duci
daughter is safe now, although she has a tough road ahead of her... I certainly hope she comes to realize she needs help and accepts it
enjoy cooking, reading and kitty
hmmm, I would add bubble bath hugs, Carla

celticharp
Take your time Ella you will go through a range of emotions and people in the non drug world will shun you and it is emarrissing but she will get the help she needs now, encourage her to keep her head u and to not walk in there like a whipped dog, my daughter was tough in prison but no one missed with her, and yes I baied her I put miney on her books, for treats and candy, i had ooks shipped to her and bought a prison radio and TV and earphones, I know ut she is my baby, my husband would gripe but I let him have it once and he shut up, I never missed a visit. I love that girl and I know for a fact you love yours too!!

mlp1960
Have been worrying about you and your daughter,glad you are back but sorry it is in such unhappy cicumstances.The one good thing if you can call it that,is that you know where she is at present time.I truly hope and pray that something good comes out of this,for your daughter and very much for your sake to.You are a strong person Ella but the weight must be great on you at this time.Thinking of you and your child and praying for both of you.Take care and hang on in there.

wen47
Ella, I have read your story, and I'm sorry for what has happend with her, maybe this will give her a chance to recover and somewhat get her life back to normal persay? Many prayers are with her right now, she will be safe in God's hand! things will turn out for the best.
Many hugs
Barb

pouch
There were times I wished my daughter was in jail instead of doing... whatever. I know that tight fist in the stomach... wondering where she is and what she is doing. I remember when she was in the hospital after her 1st overdose. Even though she was in a coma, I was grateful because I knew where she was, that she was alive and being taken care of. Having an addicted daughter lead me to be grateful for very strange things. My thoughts are with you.

VictoriaJoy