Janeywom's Journal

Well it's done. broken a few rules, but hey, who's going to find out.  I took my assignment in on a memory stick, downloaded it onto the computer at work, finished it off, printed it and then saved it back onto the memory stick.  I will ask Cath to look at it then send it for quality control to my dad.  Then email it in!!

Next is revision, any tips for a useless memory would be gratefully appreciated.  I used sticky notes the last time and then i scaped a pass.  But as long as i just get a pass that is all i am happy with.

I had to do something really horrible this morning and i didn't like it one bit.  My line manager who was leading shift asked me to follow her, i wondered what i had done wrong.  She took me through to the neighbouring unit leaving the door open, i followed her to the lounge and at this point i twigged why.  She asked me to witness that the guy tony i share a lift with that he was asleep.  I felt so awful, but having been caught myself i later reassured me.  I then had to have a meeting and say what i saw.  We night staff all do it, just don't get caught half the time, i even know managers that have done it.  I hope i was reasuring to him that he would not get in any serious trouble.  He was really embarassed and he's the youngest in the team only being 19.  I felt really sorry for him.

I broke my headphones for my MP3 so had to reduce myself to watch countdown and then onto kids tv!  Three channels of kids tv on a saturday morning and the other one news!  come on help me stay awake for the last hour and a half at least.  I can't get passed 3 letter letter words in countdown normally, i got a six letter word this morning, the fish oil and studying must be helping! (fluke more like)

Cath has gone off to Brownsea Island with the Brownies today, without me as i wouldn't have any sleep time.  She got really stressed with me last night and was thowing texts here there and everywhere, telling me to f*** off etc.  I got really upset, i thought i had done everything, but obviously hadn't.  Useless.  I was nearly in tears at one point. 

I have too much thinking time at work and got back to thinking about my  dad.  It rea;;y upset me that he has no photo's up of me and Cath only one of me about 3 years ago that i gave him for Christmas.  On his 60th i did a presentation of photo's of me growing up, which he loved as he didn't have any photo's of me growing up to look at.  So why didn't he ask mum for some photos if he wanted them, why didn't he want me with him, why did he never say how much he missed me.  He never talks about it, he never remembered about the anniversary we had about my adoption when they got me.  He never really comes to see us in Yeovil, i think he's been once in about 6 years.  Yet he has all the time in the world to go swanning off the the lakes, he spends more time with My stepmums family and leaves me out.  He makes my mum look perfect!  and thats saying something!