Megg’s Profile
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About Me
I am retired but involved in voluntary work and community projects. I live just outside a small village with a very close community, and we all are involved with, and offer help to, each other. I am a teacher with our local line dancing group. I have two beautiful daughters and four grandchildren, plus one great grandson. My Religion is important to me and I attend the Salvation Army, but I do not like to preach or be preached at. I love music (most types) and my computer.
Interests
Line dancing, music, reading, writing and my computer (known locally as "my puter").
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Recent Activity
Wednesday
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Megg changed their mood to OK 10:20pm
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Hi Stella. Hope you are OK. I keep checking, but you haven't written in your journal. Thinking of you,…
Monday
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Megg changed their mood to OK 3:49am
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Megg gave JenCG Flowers 3:28am
Thanks for thinking of me sweetie. Sending some flowers to add some colour to your day .. Mary…
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Megg commented on nannysel’s journal entry Lost 2:53am
Wish I didn't live on the other side of the world, Sel. I would love to get out in the wilderness with…
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Nothing but rain, rain and more rain today!!!! Thinking I might send some your way!! Hope you're staying well and catching your breath before the next round of events. Love and hugs, Kath
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Shepherds PIe sounds delightful - but I am on a diet here. Hopeing it rains just enough for you to have water but not swamp you out. Blessings and Prayers. Bonnie
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Hi Mary...I have just left a comment on your journal. I hope your are feeling better today. That flu of yours has been hanging around for awhile, no wonder you are so fed up. Keep warm - I am sending you warm hugs! Vicki xx
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Yes I am doing fine Mary, I hope you are too, and not doing too much after that awful flu! lots of love sweet one, take care now, love, jazzy xxx
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Hope you are feeling better Mary. Love and hugs Jenxoxoxo
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Support Groups
Close Bereavement
Type: Loss of a Partner/SpouseMy husband of forty six years died in December 2006 and I am having trouble dealing with his loss. He had a brain aneurism, and died within ten minutes, in my arms. He told me he loved me at that time - and that he loved our daughters and their children.
Treatments
- Remeron Working / Worked
- Wouldn't take them at first, but gave in when things reached rock bottom. Take three to four weeks to get into system. Running on auto pilot most days - VERY DRY MOUTH.
- Crying Working / Worked
- I WAS having giant melt downs every day, but over the past three weeks, they only happen three or four times a week. It helps me get out the pain.
- Getting Angry Working / Worked
- I NEVER yelled at him when he was here, but have yelled at him a couple of times recently when things broke and I couldn't fix them, or made them worse when I tried. Made me feel guilty.
- Helping Others Too Soon to Tell
- I have been a volunteer with the bush fire brigade for many years. My husband was Senior Deputy Captain with the same Brigade, and now I cannot go into the Brigade building - it is too painful.
- Keeping Busy Working / Worked
- I start out full of enthusiasm, but then think "what is the point". Getting better at it.
- Music Working / Worked
- I have always loved music, but my husband and I loved the same type of music. It makes me miss him more when I picture us singing along together in the car or just listening together. I am beginning to be able to listen to MOST of the stuff we both liked - but not the stuff we both loved.
- Poetry Not Working
- I have always written poetry from being very young, but it was normally humerous. I don't find anything very funny at present.
- Prayer Somewhat Helpful
- My religion has been the same since I was very young. I talk to my God frequently, but this is one time I cannot understand His reasoning.
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- Only seen the therapist once, but she is really good. Opened up a locked door I didn't know was there. I am still trying to deal with that!
- Reading Working / Worked
- Am better able to concentrate now. I have always loved reading, and so did he.
- Remembering Working / Worked
- I think of him all day every day. I cuddle his pillow at night. I Write in my journal now all of the things I saved up to tell him when I get home. It is helping.
- Support from Friends & Family Somewhat Helpful
- My daughters, especially the younger of the two, have been extremely supportive - but they are trying to deal with the loss of their Dad, and although we try to help each other, it doesn't always end up that way. They adored him and the feeling was mutual. My husband's friends - usually the other halves to my friends are always on call, and I know all of that, but I rarely call on them because I now feel "out of the loop" not having a partner any more.
- Support Groups Working / Worked
- Because I live a 45 minute drive from the nearest large town, I do not have access to any support groups other than my own network of friends.
- Talking Working / Worked
- One friend lost her husband twelve months before I lost mine. She has been spectacular and will ring and tell me how I am feeling on any given day - and she is always right. She has also helped me through the mine field of things that have to be done. Also my journal is helping heaps.
- Time Not Working
- It has been more than nine months, and I am a little further forward. Why can't I move on - how long does it take?
- Valium Not Working
- Hated the sensation - took for three nights then gave up. Had nightmares, woke up ten times a night crying - better off without them. Music and reading are better.
Close Depression
Type: Clinical (Major) DepressionMy husband died on 19th December 2006 and I have been going steadily downhill since then. Saw my GP today and he says I have a depressive illness. Have to see a specialist, and I now know I can't do this on my own.
Treatments
- Support from Friends & Family Somewhat Helpful
- My girls try so hard to comfort me, but they miss their dad so much we end up upsetting each other. My friends are wonderful and are very supportive - it is me who cannot get past what has happened.
- Writing Not Working
- Joining this site makes me a little more hopeful it will work now.
- Remeron Working / Worked
- Only prescribed today so don't know if it will work. I have resisted all medication so far, but I will try this.
Open Widows & Widowers
My husband died on 19 December 2006. We were married for 46 years, together for 51 years. I met him when I was 14 and there was never anyone else. He was my best friend, a great dad and a top grandad. I can't get past it.
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- Grief Counseling Somewhat Helpful
- My therapist is a young woman. She said just a few words and the flood gates opened. Made me realise something I had not known I was doing. I am still dealing with it, but I think I am moving forward "baby steps"
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Snapshot
Recently …
- 6 hugs given
- 6 hugs received
- 2 journal posts
- 18 journal comments
