Raharra's Journal

Its been a while since i have been in here. Strangely enough there were many times that i should have came in to say hi. I some times wonder what i am doing in calgary, such a big city and i feel often all alone. I moved here to start a new life hoping the big move from Fort McMurray would make me come out of my shell and help me with my divorce. 

I am constantly reminded from a day to day basis how much time i spend by myself.  Especially now in the summer when i remember doing things with my ex, travelling and just hanging out with his family. I have been here for over a year now and yet i have made little attempts to make friends. Maybe its because i am older now, and most of the people i have known for years was connected with my ex. They all have children except for me. I wonder if one day ill get the chance again to have a family or get rid of the depression that i seem to carry around with me like bad baggage. But then who knows, maybe my negativity is my curse.

So many factors i believe, shyness, depression  lack of self confidence.  How do one ever change such bad personality traits. ?