HeatherB2005's Journal

Feelin really bad

Well feeling bad again today; I can't shake this cold, my throat is killing and I feel achy all over. To top it off today is the anniversary of my fathers death. He died 3 years ago today at the age of 52. I still can't seem to get over it, it took me a full year to actually stop crying everyday! We were very close and so much alike! My husband has a totally diferent rationale behind losing someone (he lost his father to in 2001), he says they are not suffereing anymore and that everyone has to die sometime. I can't talk to him about it because I am tired of hearing his explanation. I know in my head that is true but my heart just can't make sense of it! I miss him so much.  I know I probably sound like a baby, he is not suffering anymore and god knows he had alot of suffering here on earth, I am happy his suffering is over. I can replay the day he died in my head in full detail, from the time we got the call he wasn't doing good to the last tear drop that fell from his check. I am sorry ranting on but it feels real good to talk to someone thats not family.