BabyMO's Journal

The next day was harder than the first. The pain became more intensed and so did I. I was numb! I didn't want to be around anyone! I didn't want to talk to anyone but, my husband. I just wanted him to hold and let me cry. But, it got to the point that I needed to let him express how he felt. I after finally letting myself stay in the bed for 2 days straight.I went to him ad told him, I want you to talk to me about how you feel and how we feel. I won't let this destroy what we are and have. I won't let this control me ,I control me. I told him I am going to have my ups and downs and I really need you to just be here for me. Right now the first week is mine to just go with whatever way I am gonna take this. I am here I told him to listen BUt, I don't know how strong I am . It was agreed that we wouldn't close each other out. It was a blessing in disguise that we were able to communicate well with one another in regards to something we both wanted so bad.

Not one day do I not think of why I couldn't have my baby? I was ready to be mommmy and He was ready to be daddy. I get baby magazines in the mail and somtimes I cry.................. I still have people saying congrats to me about my pregnancy, I feel like dying when I have to tell them :"I HAD A MISCARRIAGE". I see pregnant people all around me and I love it, But, I just wish it was still me too.

I miss my angel!! Mommy & Daddy loves you always! We were blessed to have our chance with you baby! We never found out what you were. But, all I know is you were our BABY!!