tcoburn's Journal

Well everyone, Sunday was my 38th birthday.  I really didn't do a whole lot, my dad came down to take me out to eat and to take me to the grocery to pick up some things I cannot carry home when I walk to the grocery every week,  like bottled water, ice cream, salt for the water softner, things like that mostly.

Birthdays usually just remind me that there are fewer days left then they are behind.

I do think its interesting how the traits we are born with follow us to adulthood.

My mom was telling me a story when she came over for my birthday, about my  very first day of kindergarten. She said I came home from my first day and made it a point to
mention how much I liked looking up a girls skirt in class. lol I
don't remember ever saying that, or who the girl was, so it must have been instinct since day one that I always liked girls. my mom about freaked. lol my dad was like "yeap thats my son" lol I do remember I had a crush on my reading reediness teacher, and my second grade teacher I remember her very well, mrs heartman she definitely had my heart alright, hehe, then in 5th grade I fell in love with the same girl from 5th grade on up thru high school and beyond
but never did tell her, b/c the kids always made fun of my speech. I liked her so much that it didn't even cross my mind to ask anyone else out even though she was dating my friend darryl all those years, until he got her pregnant when we were in high school, but even then when they broke up I didn't have the courage to tell her, I liked her THAT much.

After 2 failed marriages, a breakup just before a marriage, and several dates in
between those two times, a girl at school last semester was mentioning once that some girls
turn bi-sexual because of bad experiences with guys, well I don't believe that
is possible, because I like girls WAYYY too much to ever think about converting.
If I see a good looking guy, all I have to do is turn my head and look at a nice
pair of legs on a female and my mouth drops to the floor and the drol suddenly
becomes apparent and thats all she wrote. lol  or I give a girl a kiss on the lips and shivers run down our spines, and that tells me I was born to love women since day one.

I mean, every time I tell myself I am done with women, every time some lady craps on me, all I have to do is take a trip to walmart and watch all the cute ladies in their miniskirts or tight jeans or shorts, and suddenly I forget about what I said about being done with women. its like trying to change a part of yourself, you just can't do it,  so when people tell me they convert after bad experiences with the oppisite sex,  I don't believe that for a second.

I was never much of a pet person either, mom always told me even as young as 18
months old when the neighbors thought it would be cute to introduce me to a
neighbor dog, she said even then I wasn't interested in the dog one bit, or any
dog or cat thereafter, and that holds true to this day, I was fascinated with
balls and stuffed animals and bikes and electronics and stuff like that. but never pets.  I don't mind them around, but I've never developed a love, or facination, for any pet like most people do. Its just not there. its kinda strange how your interests, and dislikes, even from 1 to 2 years of age follow you to adulthood all the years of yer life.   I think that subject just facinates me, how a persons tastes and interets in life aren't learned but born with since day one, least mine have been.  I've always liked girls and I've never liked pets really as long as I can remember, same is true with computers I've been an electronics nutt since day one also, and mom said even as a baby I was the same way with all my likes and dislikes, so I thought that was neat, that even when I try new things in life, I always revert back to the interests I was born with.  Its as if you cannot change that part of yourself.