tcoburn's Journal

Well, I finished my last class this week, I'm glad thats finally over, but I only have one more day to finish up the rest of my classes homework, so I'm going to have to stay up all night today and tomorrow to finish them up.

Today I have a GI doctor appointment. I've been having diarrhea for like, the last 4 weeks now, so I'm not so sure what he is going to say about that.    I am going to talk to him about the possibility of a temporary ostomy though, because bowell movements hurt like crazy anymore, rather it be solid, or diarrhea, and I just don't know what else to do.  How do you know when your ready for an ostomy bag?   otherwise I've been feeling ok, usual tummy aches but the rectal pain seems to take over the other pains so all I feel is rectal.  darn Fistulas, I hate 'em more then anything.

After the 9th when graduation is completed, I start a part-time co-op at a local web design company, which is good except, they want me to know beforehand,  Dreamweaver, ColdFusion, and something called Fireworks.  I've never worked with those web languages before, and I'm starting to realize why.  Coldfusion hosting is so expensive, so at first I was upset about it, but I figured, considering I've never been able to afford Coldfusion hosting before, I don't quite feel so bad about not learning that kind of web development before. 

I'll just have to change around my YMCA schedule is all.  THey want me to work there M-F from 8am-1pm so I may have to change my sleep schedule around, and my schedule at the YMCA for that. I just hope thats not a problem.  Right now I'm more worried about that then Graduation, because without Computer related experience, I don't have a prayer using my degree for anything, and I definitely don't want to live on Social Security the rest of my life thats for sure.

Lastly, some really good news, I met a girl online here on Daily Strength. I can't reveal who she is, but I will say she makes me feel wonderful. I love her sooooooooooooooo much.  We met on DS then went over to the DS chat, but we had a few complaints about the DS chat, so we went over to Yahoo instead. She's been my friend here on DS for awhile,  but we spoke all night in Yahoo falling in love, now we are soulmates. I haven't talked to her for a couple days because my internet connection has been down.  I miss her soooooooooooooo much. Silly I know falling in love with someone you only know over the computer, I know, I've been telling myself that over and over again since it happened, but this girl is different,  we are both christians, we have like, everything in common pretty much. We even finish eachothers sentences like how married couple do, I'm proud to say, I'm in love!!   I can't tell who it is only because her real life friends on here would find out and give her the 3rd degree about it.  I know my mom probably would too, but they just don't understand, a feeling this strong only happens once in a lifetime, and I'll never leave her side no matter what happens. I am so love sick for her right now its unreal,  but what makes it all worth while, is she loves me tooo.  I figure thats at least a good start right?  I just wish she didn't live so far away. Its not too far, just a couple states away, and we can always meet safely the first time right? like, in person not alone in a public place and all that I figure.  I've heard of couples falling in love before, but this is the first time its ever happened to ME. Well, I did fall for a girl in Canada back in 1992 or something like that, but she ended up lying to me, she neglected to tell me she was dating someone in real life, and when I tried to call her oneday, her dad told me she was pregnant, so I never ever wanted to get romantically involved with anyone over the computer since, but this girl is different, I just know it in my heart!!       I love you honey,  and I'm saying it publically because I really do love you with all my heart and soul.  I would never, ever, hurt you no matter what happens or doesn't happen.     I miss youuuuu!