What a B*tch
July 11, 2008 12:51pm
*possibly triggering*
So, i was watching this movie and in in the end the girl kills herself by …
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tearsofblood
is feeling Bad
Had an awsome week, now its back to work.
Recently: 5 discussion replies, 5 hugs given more …
About Me
I moved out when i was 17 and worked for a year, now im going to college and hoping to make something out of my life. Ive been struggling with si and depression. My parents just kind of ignore it. I also struggle with taking to many pills and overdosing. Thankfully I have a great loving bf and some great friends to support me.
Interests
Reading, internet, broadcasting, swimming, stuff like that.
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Recent Activity
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tearsofblood gave BlissfullyxBrkn a Hug 12:26pm
good luck. hope it goes well.…
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tearsofblood gave BlissfullyxBrkn a Hug 12:06pm
thats really awsome. how are you today?…
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tearsofblood and BlissfullyxBrkn are now friends 12:05pm
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tearsofblood replied to BlissfullyxBrkn’s discussion post really lonely in the Depression support group 1:17am
i feel alone too, it sucks so bad. *hugs*…
Wednesday
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tearsofblood replied to ldrake5’s discussion post medicine stopped.. in the Depression support group 5:37pm
YES! i was on wellbutrin as well for quite awhile and it stopped working and felt like it was making…
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So alone it hurts
July 8, 2008 7:35pm
I cut last night, hadnt in weeks. I just feel so alone, i wish i could cry. But i cant, i just feel empty and numb on the inside. I want to do it …
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I feel horrible
June 10, 2008 11:53pm
I feel absoutely horrible. I want to cut sooo bad but i dont because im going home for a visit and i dont want them to see, plus im trying to quit. I …
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I F*cked up
May 26, 2008 10:06am
I hadnt cut for a few weeks, I was doing so well, and then last night I just gave in. Ive overdosed three times in the last while, I need help. But I …
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I cant stand it
May 24, 2008 10:53pm
I dont want to live like this, i cant deal with this pain. i just want it to END!!!
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i'm doing better so far today thanks i'm getting ready to go to a regular doctor check up feeling a bit anxious but not too much
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looks like we've got a few things in common at least..i'm also 19 and in college...but i lack a supporting boyfriend and family :-\ i'm also into broadcasting that is my major electronic media i hope to get into radio someday
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I'm ok. I'm glad you had a great week.
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just checking in to see how you are doing.....big hugs xxx
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I hope that when you get back you feel better. Hang tough, I'm here if you need me.
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Support Groups
Close Self-Injury
ive been doing it for what seems like forever, ive tried quiting but i always go back to it. i started because i never felt good enough or in control of my life.
Treatments
- Ativan Working / Worked
- works well to calm me down, but very addictive
- Psychotherapy Somewhat Helpful
- worked but i had to move and looking for counselling in my new town
- Squeezing Ice Somewhat Helpful
- somewhat helpful but doesnt really work because i need to see the blood
- Talking Somewhat Helpful
- talking helps but if i really want to cut i will
Close Anxiety
Treatments
- Ativan Working / Worked
- very addictive,works well
- Breathwork Working / Worked
- works well but you really have to concentrate on it
- Klonopin Working / Worked
- worls great but makes me tired
Open Depression
Type: Clinical (Major) Depressionmy family has a history of depression and i got really bad for me the summer after i graduated highschool, i had to be hospitalized, because of my si and taking pills for no reason. Since then i have had to go to the hospital due to overdosing but havnt stayed more than one night. I just want to get better, and am trying but sometimes feels like a losing battle.
Treatments
- Celexa Somewhat Helpful
- it worked well at first then stopped
- Cognitive Behavioral Therapy Working / Worked
- im just starting this so i dont know if it works yet
- Effexor Somewhat Helpful
- worked realy well at first, lost weight and was feeling better but then after being on it for quit some time it stopped working
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- very important, u need more than drugs to try and recover
- Wellbutrin Not Working
- 300mg daily, took the edge of things, had less panic attacks but ive had the dose incresed up to the maximum because it wasnt working, stil isnt and waiting to see my doctor to change it. i gained weight which really sucked, and lately ive been having major migranes daily.
- Writing Working / Worked
- ive starting keeping a journal again, i have in the past and it did help somewhat so i fiqured why not, plus this website is really helpful.
Open Stress Management
i get stressed out really easily and sometimes it just seems so overwhelming.
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- Music Working / Worked
- music is so helpful!!
- Patience Working / Worked
- Physical Exercise Working / Worked
- i fiqure skate so sometimes it helps sometimes it just angers me
Open Family Issues
my moms and aunt or major control freaks and cant accept the fact im depressed and have some problems, they wont even talk about it. But they always know exactly what im doing even though im in college. i have a very strained relationship with them. my dads a workacholic and was never really there for me, and still isnt. since i became a teenager ive always had a hard time getting along with them.
Treatments
Open Physical & Emotional Abuse
tearsofblood hasn’t entered any details for this support group.Open College Stress
im totally stressed out this semester. thats all i feel like saying
Treatments
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
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- 5 hugs given
- 4 hugs received
- 5 discussion replies
