Renee1974's Journal

For My Darling Boy Mood

Tuesday, May 6, 2008

I am falling all over the place today. Just like my politics though I am falling to the left LOL. I am highly medicated after pusing myself so hard yesterday.

May 05 was my darling baby boys seventh birthday. I just want to take a momment to say that I LOVE YOU Spencer. One of the best days of my life was the day you were born. I remember holding you the first time and crying because I had never loved anyone this much. I want to thank you for coming into my life. I want to thank you for all of the lessons that you have taught me in our seven years together. Through your eyes I have experienced the childhood I never had. I went to a swimming pool for the first time because of you. I learned to appreciate grass, and to love dancing like a chicken.

Each day as I watch you grow, you continue to be a marvel for me. Your large beautiful brown eyes are filled with wonder at the world and a genuine sense of excitment. You have an amazing sense of justice and a true desire to help when you see others hurting. The world that you dream about is fair, and filled with love. I hope someday it will all be as you imagine.

I worry for your future, as you have such a sensitve and beautiful soul. People may try to take advantage of that. You give me the greatest comfort my son. Just watching you sleep, playing with your curls ( yes I know you hate that) or rubbing your back brings a sense of tranquility to my life that you will never know. I love the sound of your laughter it fills my heart with joy. I love holding you in my arms and miss the days when you were little enough to sit on my lap.

The years are passing so fast and one day soon you will leave me to stake your claim in this world. Just know that no matter how far you may roam there is no place that is so far that you cannot come home. As long as I live I will dedicate myself to you. You will always have my love my dear son, and my best wishes. Today on your seventh birthday beautiful boy, I say to you thank you my darling, I love you more than I can ever express in words. I am so proud of you, I am so thankful for you. I love you Spencer.

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Beautiful tribute to your son.. May all your days be filled with the joy of seeing this wonderful child grow in everyway.. take care love D

dollyc
That was beautiful, would that god would let all children be so wanted and loved.

GeorgiaW
I was so moved by your tribute to your son. He is such a lucky boy to have a mom that loves and adores him so much. There are so many unfortunate children in the world that will never know this kind of unconditional LOVE....He will grow up to be a compassionate and loving man, father, and male role model to many many people in his life.....

cancerfree50
As a mother myself, I truly understand that there is no other love that compares to the love we have for our children. Every year on each of my son's birthday's, we go through a silly little ritual. I tell them the story of their special day. It always starts off, "I remember the day you were born David or Donnie. The weather was......and I was....". My story goes on and on remembering out loud to them all the beautiful details of their special day.

Each of my boys moans just a bit, "we remember Mom, you tell us every year". And I say to them, "yes I know, it was the most special day of my life". Even though we do this each and every year Renee, I bet if I missed just once they would be very disappointed. I like to think so anyway.

So it sounds as if you do a similar ritual with your boys, in your own way. You have made me smile with your jounal entry here today and I wish Spencer many, many more years of his mom's special love story....Happy Birthday Spencer!

RuthMH
That was really nice Renee. It does my heart good, and gives me hope that there are mothers out there who truly love their children and dedicate themselves to them. The comfort they will have knowing they can always come home is a wonderful thing. You are a great mom.

ab223
I ENJOYED YOUR JOURNAL. I KNOW HOW YOU FEEL BECAUSE I FEEL THE SAME WAY ABOUT MY KIDS. THERE IS NO GREATER JOY THAN TO HEAR THOSE FIRST WORDS OF MOMMY, I LOVE YOU OR THAT UNEXPECTED KISS, OR A THANK YOU BECAUSE YOU GAVE THEM A TREAT OR A HUG. I AM GLAD YOU WERE ABLE TO ENJOY SPENCER'S BIRTHDAY. HE SOUNDS LIKE AN AMAZING YOUNG MAN. KEEP UP THE GOOD WORK. WEAR YOUR MOMMY BADGE WITH PRIDE AND LOVE.
HAPPY MOTHERS DAY.

TAS1969
Happy Birthday Spencer!!!!!!,Renee that was beutiful, and just the way you feel about him I know he loves you as well, Children are truly a blessing,And when you hold them for the first time you'll never be the same :)
you have wonderful boys and one day you will see all the love you gave them when they go out into the world and start their lives and their family ,they learn by example!
What a beautiful gift you gave to your son ~Loving him and letting him express hisself !!!
HUGS............

sunnyc
****WARM AND FUZZY****

sunnyc mentioned that "they learn by example"... does that mean they are "falling to the left," too? hehehe Just kidding!!!!! :) It's obviously not important. As cancerfree50 said: it's unconditional. You love them NO MATTER WHAT.

And that's a beautiful thing. XOXOXO

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