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Journal Entry for September 23, 2007 Mood

Sunday, September 23, 2007

i wasnt going to take any provigil today ,thinking that i would just sleep all day but then i rembered that we have a move in on the 28 th of this month. I am so gratefull for the opertunity to have this little job with imployeers that try to understand me and ,WHAT THE HECK!! they like me. I know though that i cant let this narco thing take over my life because it may take a long time to get disability (if ever) and i dont think i would be able to hang in there if i had to go to a homeless shelter. I want the new management to know that i will be here for them for any little task as i am with Maggie & the current mgs..so i have to make that extra effort. by the way feel free to laugh at my spelling and gramer Maggie corrects all my notes in the office,, lol your reading from the mind of a gal that didnt finish the 10th grade and has a GED only because most of the questions were multiple choice.. lol. my computer skills are minimal and lucky to be that only for the grace of patience trial and error and friends that had the patience to explain the impornt things (like the big nob on the long heavy dohicky wasnt decorative but the ON button)

I bought a do it your self chemical peel HE!! HE!! a little early for howleen crap where is the spell check here? its working soon i will be less freckled and the scars i have named after my exhusbands are suposto get lighter .

well it doesnt look like i will throw up this morning so i guess i will not be in bed all day..

so nice to know that i am not crazy and that there are other people out there thathave some of the same worries.

by the way does any one ever wonder if they might some day just not ever be able to get awake? and just spend there old age asleep all the time?

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LOL...I know many people that would love to sleep all the time. I have MS and the fatigue level is extremely high sometimes; although I know it is worse for you. My motto is keep chuggin till ya can't chug no more...then let everyone else deal while I take a nap! :0)

lovesJesus
loves jesus said that my fatigue is may be worse than hers with MS.. how kind you are, from what i know about MS i dont want to trade with her. some people just are so caring it is a miracle to know them.
I will at times be blunt to the extreem, also i have a morbid sence of humor so bear with me.
I am lucky I guess because i didnt know I had any thing wrong with me untill lately, I figgured I either had a strange metabilism, or a Puerto Rican virus, that could be cured with a shot, lol ha! ha! I have developed a marvelouse and inventive sence of how to make a living,, The stories I could tell you lol now I am cleaning weeds from the parking lot. cleaning apts that are empty, answering pnones. selling bamboo on ebay, and making crochet blouses to sell.. all this payes the rent and utitilies. yep yep yep. do I want to commit the big S? honestly every morning I let my self think about it, but I have some good reasons not to. they are Marckus wade, and Zachary Allen, some day ill find them and I want them to see a healthy mommie. gotta go its almost light and theres bamboo a waitin and the exterminator needs to do 3 buildings to day.

kaddidle
i know sleeping seems like the answer but its not. no matter how tired you are keep trying, i have found that the dr had to up my meds and i still have trouble staying awake. you just hang in there and dont worry about your spelling it doesnt matter ive always said there are people that can spell and people that have to carry a dictionary with them. i would be the one who need the dictionary. your not alone in the fight to stay awake and feel rested, cant remember the last time i felt rested. can you?

loulucy
i belive in carrying the dictionary to couldn't spell if my life depended on it. keep trying and as for ssi it took me three years and that was before they found nark. my husbond three mo. was all it took. i would ask some one who has all that you have and see how long it would take to get help. i got medicade long before i got ssi. in fact i went and applyed for medicade and they refused me i appled and won. so dont give up. linda

loulucy