Rachel9165's Journal

Becky hasn't been on in two days.

Yes, I sounds like a psycho stalker buuut...

YO MAN HIT ME UP! We've got lots of shit to talk about, haha

Today I walked into the school and one of my friends gave me the DIRTIEST look imaginable. She's the one who's the total bitch to me all the time, so I just ignored it because honestly I'm just so tired of her shit. After a couple hours of dirty looks and ignoring me, I finally just gave in and texting her saying, "Okay, you're CLEARLY mad at me. Wanna share why?" and she said "Well just stop making fun of me all the time and we'll be good..."

Whaaaat the fuck man. Like, she makes fun of EVERYONE non-stop, and I asked everybody else if they had noticed me making fun of her and they all said no. This is just her trying to start drama and turn people against me. I'm so tired of her juvenile games. I give up.

 In other news.. I am OFFICIALLY back neck deep in bulimia/binge eating. It's just a constant hand-to-mouth necessity. I am absolutely PETRIFIED of being hungry. I'm finding it increasingly harder to cope with things without turning to food. I just can't handle life anymore.

I am very unstable mentally and emotionally, and I am gaining weight by the second.

This sucks.