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Journal Entry for February 3, 2008 Mood

Sunday, February 3, 2008

It's been a long time. I feel the need to write again. The world keeps moving foreward whether we move with it or not. It's a cruel reality.

I needed time to feel and collect my thoughts. Alot has gone on in a short time. Stbx is feeling the stress of the divorce now and focusing her anger directly at me. It's only starting but things will soon change. Though I cannot speak to her, I am feeling that things with her bf may not be so comfortable for her now. I've demanded my belongings for the last time. I've gone a year with out them. I'm thankful I have a good job and have done well at saving. I never thought I would need it for a time like this but never the less I am thankful. I have learned so much about myself this past year.

I'm determined despite my fears of divorce. I'm alone and getting more comfortable and I know things are getting better. When the divorce is final I hope I will be ready to move foreward. Maybe even take some chances again. What a slow painful process.

I've started attending a divorce care group. Learned that depression is a process we use to feel good again. I think I'm slowly coming out of that cloud. I still have no idea what is in my future but it's one day at a time until this divorce is complete. I've always been passionate about my work, but now is my time to heal with no other pressures to interere with the process.

Also, my faith has grown stronger. I wish I had practiced it earlir in life but know it's something that has really woke me up. I'm thankful I have changed in this respect and feel good about my future.

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I haev always been a hard worker and could put 200% forward, in the early days of my breakup it was hard as hell on me just to getup and go to work. Lucky for me I was upfront and honest with my boss and he was very supportive (as I am a good/hardworking employee).

I'm glad you are looking at things in a day-at-a-time perspective. Easier to get through them.

Good luck to you.

Chris

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Glad things are lookin up a little better for you!! It will get better, but I know it takes time and sometimes it's hard to wait. You seem like a fine person and a great dad with a good head on your shoulders. I'm sure it wont be long before you find someone to share it with. There's not many of you floatin aroud out there ya know. My prayers will be with you and your family to heal one day at a time!
Lots of hugs!!
Lori

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