newbrguy's Journal

Here's a twist. Went to work today. Got reemed out for not performing to standards on my job. Done some amazing things this year, however, I'm not 100%.....Surprise I am going through a divorce remember. World crumbled around me and I took 3 days off during it. Pretty committed I think to my job. Two routes I could have taken. Add to my depression or take control. Took the latter. Spoke to counsellor today and realized what I was missing..Passion. I get excited when there are possibilities in front of me. I need to explore new career options that don't limit my potential. Need to continue to throw energy and discipline into my health and workouts. I went in today with issues and assumed that drugs were in order. I need to control the things I can control and make gains in and try and worry less about what I can't. I have a long journey ahead, but I need to make the best of it. I need to lay off on the dates for a while. The opportunity is presenting itself all the time and I like the ego boost, but the time is not right. There are a lot of people in the world and I'm a good catch, however, I need to focus on my immediate goals. If anyone reads this, I am by no means cured, but if your feeling down, take control of something and make some sort of gain. Don't be a rat on a wheel.