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Thursday, May 15, 2008

To see an attic in your dream,represents hidden memories or repressed thoughts that is being revealed.It also symblizes your mind,spirituality and your connection to the higher self.It signifies diffficulties in your life that will hinder you from attaining goals and aspirations.However in the end,after a long period of struggle you will overcome them.To see a cluttered attic is a sign to organize your mind and thoughts.WOW this is what I read when I looked up what my dream meant.I decided the other day that I have got to face up to things and only I could do it.I have had people reach in and help but for me to get better I had to do this alone and do it myself.I know I have a strong personality but have a soft heart but because acromegaly had tried to shut me down and mould me to what it wanted I lost me.The drug dose I am on so woke me up but I didnt have a manual on how to cope with emotions going backwards and forwards one minute I was laughing and then someone was making me cry.I was also getting mixed up with being on here how can you get attached to people on here its not real thats what I thought how can you fall in love with people on here it was not logical to my mind.So I just had to sort myself out and took time out in my garden I sat leaning up an overturned wheelbarrow and looking across at the seeds I planted the colours are starting to come through and I saw a butterfly and smiled I will do my goal it may take time but I know I will do it.As to organize my mind and thoughts well that will take some time Ive been like it all my life I breeze in and turn peoples lives upside down dont think a joker can ever change because then that wouldnt be me.Sonnyjojo is right in a certain way we shouldnt let acromegaly bury us but I think we have to face some of the issues it does to us because it can creep up and affect us in strange places like finding yourself shake when I realized my wedding ring which was so small and had beautiful little hearts on cant be changed to fit my fingers because the hearts wont look the same if I did.But with what acromegaly does I will not give up because if I do it has won and I wont let it JJx

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i applaud you my friend, you have done a lot while you have been gone and it looks like for the better. i know it is so heart breaking when that special ring doesnt fit anymore,( 2 engagement rings ive had) both can not be changed and ive said dont buy another. we are getting married in a couple of weeks now and im hoping that the wedding ring will still fit for the day at least. it destroys feeling acromegealy but being strong all the time wears me down so much a hug for you and to say keep climbing that mountain were all so close to beating this and keeping on top of it!

flouncy
Every time a ring doesn't fit anymore, gives you reason to get another one. Now you don't have to justify being good to yourself this way! ;)
Yes, we people on DS are real people. We are with you in every way but physical. This is not computer driven response, it's heartfelt. Intel and Microsoft still have not invented a human heart. Here's to taking negatives and making them positives. Love you, Jokey...Jon

c140cfi
I couldn't wear my rings....since 2004, the whole time I was pregnant (people looked at me funny) Unwed? I bought fake wedding sets from Avon- then about six months ago, I tried, they fit! It is depressing to not be able display the symbol of your marriage. I put mine on a chain and wore them around my neck. ( I started doing that before they didn't fit at work because I wore gloves all the time and it either jacked up the gloves or made my rings gross) anyway, I have all the faith in the world that in the future, someday the rings will fit again! And when they do, it will be very special! Until then get a chain! It is the next best thing! XXXOOO

sonnyjojo4ku
My daughter and I had a conversation the other night about the meaning of dreams and I was always dreaming about elevators, not stoppping or dropping. Then it was tornados...well you can give an educated guess what both mean!!! lol I love having talks like that with my girls, it gets so deep,and they are very bright, not (100% on test bright) but they didn't have the teacher your son had! Where did you look up the dream thing? On a website? Let know! LOVE YOU!

sonnyjojo4ku
I read my entries after sometimes and I think " what a smartass" and they are not intended to come across like that at all....I don't know how you home school though in all honesty, I can't help McKayla with math, well since maybe sixth grade? Too tough! You are my hero for sure.

sonnyjojo4ku
i agree, i am not looking forward to the days my little girl will bring homework home im ok in most things but i know i will struggle. blimey i think i should go back to school and i only left 8 years agao

flouncy
I wanted to tell you, my friend that sells Avon brought me two more wedding sets (for mothers day) she is very thoughtful, I get compliments on them all the time (the fake diamonds) It is fun to have a set for every occasion. No one has ever even asked if they are real, I keep them sized to be believable, not too over the top!

sonnyjojo4ku
i havent been able to wear my wedding ring foe about three years it hangs around my neck

swampy
Wow! That was deep and honest, and I love you for it!! Of course the friends you meet here are real, and it's not weird for thinking that. Wait, unless I'm weird......
My wedding ring has spent more time off my finger than on it, and I have three different sizes now depending on the staete of my hands. My mum suggested I get them all blessed, which was a nice thought, only that means going to church again, shudder!!
I dream a lot about the guinea pigs getting ill. Your attic one, and the explanation, seem oddly comforting. Nothing like a good old tidy up for clearing your head!

Juice
I have to tell you that wearing a wedding ring does not make a marriage. I have not been able to wear my ring since 1977. My husband and I have been married almost 37 years now. There is a rainbow shining somewhere...Yesterday my doctor pronounced me cured of acromegaly.....Yea..Have faith all...DEBBIE1253

DEBBIE1253
You brought tears. Very moving you said it so well.

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