I cant appease any need in me none of
it's real emotions deceive, my mind in bitter turmoil
The planet I see does not revolve around me but
I watch it from across a sea of mist and blue
unpleasant and lonely no pastels of hue
Hate harsh reality of a simple real world
I never comply like putty in a mould
I am destined to end a tortured soul
have never confessed the truth in me
because I dont know what the fuck it is you see
Mask of happiness and pretence of compliance
yet its all self negligence
here my prodegy keep me..here..the only
reason I adhere, continue, agree to breathe
to watch them grown my only true
joy and hope
Caught in a void of where to be I m tired
too tired of the falsities..sometimes wish my demise
would simply engulf me
I bask in the enveloping plasma of earths orange glow,
without peace or sanity its just not enough you know
Same lyrics nautious spewing repeting endlessly in my head
harsh and horrid words grating chords distant bugle..am dead
hot tears for my madnesss for my guilt for me..have always been
constantly naive always mislead
What I feel? Is it real? lack of self trust yet I must
pain and misery so fatigued trying to conceal
Embrace wilderness, kindness of humanity
birds, trees, landscapes, scenery ,all grey to me
deliberate refusal to see. I cling to tense morbidity
forgive me.