Mikeybeef

So....Do you really want to drink today?

Posted on 04/18/08, 01:09 pm

So....Do you really want to drink today? We struggle and we try to find a place of normalcy in our lives.I tend to last around 30 days or so, and im not used to feeling this normal and relaxed about my life.Its almost like I get to confident in myself that I just blow it....Does anyone else feel this way?I know that my whole life revolves around focusing on staying sober.Its all I know though.Its me..So to speak. We can all stay sober...We just need to learn how to get used to being our true selves.Thats the hardest part for a lot of us...You know.I am a happy go lucky drunk but I need to find my true self.I dont want my tombstone to say."Here lies Mike.He was just a happy drunk"We are much better then this desease.Finding our true selves should be our primary focus in life.

• Reply #1 05/01/08  4:59pm
  
  AliasPandaBaby
  I know for me it was harder in the beginning. I thougt about that drink more often. But as time passed it did lesson. I became more sound of mind and realized you can enjoy life more(actully remember it) when your sober. I never want to loose my sobriety. My sobriety feels so much better than any drunk I went on. And people actually like me more sober. Go figure. I guess it is in the drunks head that when the alcohol takes affect You think you are witteir and cooler. NOT. I still have my days but I also have my tools to fight those short cravings I may have. Whether it is staying busy, calling a friend or another person from AA to get past it I find a way. I feel bless for my 9 mo. sobriety.
• Reply #2 05/06/08  1:52pm
  
  Danigirl35
  I went to rehab and was sober 28 days. I felt strange being myself so I drank as soon as I got out of rehab. I really need to take a long hard look at my true self. I find it so hard to be myself. I don't like the way I talk but can't complain on how much better I look. Why wouldn't I listen to all the compliments I get when I'm sober? Why do I still feel the need to escape? I think it's time I go to counseling. It doesn't make it much easier that my husband drinks everynight in front of me. He wonders why I would want to go in another room to watch TV and then fall asleep. Sobriety is the hardest thing I've ever attempted.
• Reply #3 08/01/08  8:14am
  
  AlcoholR
  No....but I think I have to!
• Reply #4 08/01/08  5:02pm
  
  uhoh
  I guess I am an alcoholic, I need some responses. I don't drink during the day. My wife always wants me to have at least one glass of wine with her because she feels guilty drinking alone. That one leads to many, while she stops after a few glasses. I have a fear of going to sleep, so drinking allows me to face sleeping. That could just be an excuse, but it is true. I can go several days without drinking, and went a week just to test myself. I don't crave alcohol, and only drink beer and wine. No that that matters, drinking is drinking. I like drinking because it sooths my fears and bad past experiences. I don't trust myself to not drink, like I don't deserve to feel as good as I feel when I don't drink. Maybe posting this is a start.

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