I am no longer attached, in love with, the first love of my life!

I acknowledge here and now that there are more than one that can be known to you as THE ONE. for each is THE ONE at that point in your life. every love teaches you what you need to know when you need to know it :)

love is not black and white. nor is it gray. it is all the colors combined :)

I am so happy right now :) I mean, I was just sitting around the other day and I realized that while I missed my friend, I was no longer in love with her. I just miss her because its been awhile since we've been in contact.

I'm happy for her in her new relationship and I wish her the best and she is the type of person I will judge all my other loves by. It took me oooooooohhhhhhh sooooooooo looooooong to get to this point and now that I realize I am no longer in love with her, I can happily cheer her on in her accomplishments, be there for her when she's down and still be able to live my life and search for my own loved one :)

and to those of you who have doubted that you can be friends with old flames, loves, etc.... here me now... this is one of the things that i have discovered on this hard road: YOU CAN IF YOU TRULY WANT TO! I truly wanted only friendship with her. I desired that more than her exiting my world. i didn't want to lose her, even though i was dying in pain from loving her so. but now i don't. what it took was good time and good space and then WA LA it was like a... bright light went off over my head. I hadn't missed her love for awhile and i hadn't thought of her with too much sadness (cuz i still miss her therefore sad, miss her friendship that is) and so wow.... here i am discovering a whole new love for her, as my friend, and a whole new love of life. i can breathe the fresh air and feel the smile forming on my face before anyone else can see it.

i am truly happy now. free at last........