It doesn't sound crazy it sounds like i'm reading back my life story. I've stopped self harming now, but, i still want to have my freedom but feel that i can't stray too far away from my family incase something happens and i go back to my old ways.
There was a point where i did move out and pretty much existed without my family for a year, but things got really bad and i moved back in with my family. My point is though that you learn a lot from your mistakes, from your fears and especially overcoming them. If you fail then keep trying, think about what triggered you to fail. Was it you? was it factors beyond your control? Find out and learn from it. I thought i had a life before but until take risks and step out into the big wide world you won't find the real you, the happy you. Sometimes risks pay off xx
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Trying To Recover
Posted on 08/02/08, 09:40 am
Hi everyone! This is my first time here and the first time I've talked to people who also self-injure. 10 years ago I self-inflicted a knee infection. Not once, but several times. Before I knew it, I had lost my husband, home, friends, a good job, all of my self respect, and almost a leg. To this day I still don't know why. At the time i was depressed, tired, and felt like I had made so many mistakes in my life. I still struggle with this today. Although I don't mess with my knee, somehow I manage to sabatoge my attempts at once again becoming indepedent. The reason- I'm sacred, afraid of failure, afraid of putting myself out in the real world. At the same time I want to be successful and independent. Sounds crazy. That's a little about me.
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Reply #1 08/12/08 11:40am
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Reply #2 08/20/08 12:37pm
Thanks for the reply. I'm getting the feeling I'm not the only one in the world who thinks this way. It's time I face the fact that I do have fears and they affect my decisions everyday. Maybe that's the first step in healing. Wouldn't it be wonderful to have freedom from these fears. Then again I wouldn't be alive if I didn't have them. To keep trying is the answer. Don't give up. No matter what anyone says or does to you. That's my motto.
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This group is for people who have self harmed or still do. Self-harm can be an endless cycle unless a person finds alternative, non destructive means to deal with stress and emotional pain in their lives. I have started this group to help others find the light at the end of the tunnel. I no longer self harm, but i want to help other people to end the cycle and get on with their lives.
