nomordrgs

schizoaffective

Posted on 07/14/08, 11:28 am

i was diagnosed with this in 2005. im an ex-dope fiend.i used to believe people were following me.not cops,but ordinary citizens,some type of anti-meth group.this started happening in 1994 and got really bad in 2004.it started with about 20 cars following,and in 2004,it became so intense,i felt everybody was in on it.the cops,bus drivers,store owners,homeless people,ect.and that was when i was NOT high on drugs. ive taken the meds/seroquel/welbutrin,but parole cut them out.im on effexor/busbar now.ive been clean/sober for 5 1/2months.even though i dont feel paranoid like i used to,i still believe that i was being harassed by a certain group,who made me permently suspicious.thats it for now.see ya..

• Reply #1 07/18/08  1:55pm
  
  AliCat09
  That is exactly how I felt when I was struggling with methamphetamine addiction. Cops never really bothered me, I was always fearless with them. However I did having terrible paranoia and hallucinations relating to people I've never met, and this hasn't changed in the year I've been clean. I, too have delusions on people being highly orgainized against me personally, and are plotting my demise. I know how silly it sounds but when one hears people whispering their name in the grocery store, and looking over suspiciously, and when one sees soccer mom's in Lexus SUVs wielding loaded pistols driving past me slowly in dark sunglasses, it's hard to believe it's all a fantasy.
  Do you ever think that the reason they're after you is because you have some special purpose that they don't want fulfilled?
  I have lucid dreams about some sort of prophecy involving myself organizing a revolt against the NWO... at times I'm convinced that these people will not stop until I'm dead, I'm afraid to leave the house. Haven't been outside since last Tuesday...
• Reply #2 07/19/08  1:45am
  
  nomordrgs
  Yes I know about Meth.addiction and the damaged done.A good web site is Mothers Against Meth.www.mamasite.net check it out. Ive heard about NWO and i believe we are close to having a one world government.I also believe in the bible and the end times.And it has prophecies that tell of a end times one world ruler.And a one world currency,religion,ect....So Of course I believe the rulers of the world are just Puppets on a string.. If you want to see a good movie about all this,watch Left Behind 1, 2 , and 3. If you want to talk more about paranoia,id like that.I cant tell my family,they wont believe me.I know ive seen lots of meth monsters,but i also know i had REGULAR people following me,which caused alot of my paranoia.Waiting to hear from u.
• Reply #3 07/19/08  1:45am
  
  nomordrgs
  Yes I know about Meth.addiction and the damaged done.A good web site is Mothers Against Meth.www.mamasite.net check it out. Ive heard about NWO and i believe we are close to having a one world government.I also believe in the bible and the end times.And it has prophecies that tell of a end times one world ruler.And a one world currency,religion,ect....So Of course I believe the rulers of the world are just Puppets on a string.. If you want to see a good movie about all this,watch Left Behind 1, 2 , and 3. If you want to talk more about paranoia,id like that.I cant tell my family,they wont believe me.I know ive seen lots of meth monsters,but i also know i had REGULAR people following me,which caused alot of my paranoia.Waiting to hear from u.
• Reply #4 07/19/08  1:47am
  
  nomordrgs
  "DAMN IT" I doubled clicked..Oh Well.....See ya
• Reply #5 08/14/08  2:53pm
  
  BipolarPrin...
  I was diagnosed as a schizo in 2005 too....freaky huh?

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