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MY STORY
Posted on 04/17/08, 07:27 pm
WELL THIS ISN'T GOING TO BE LONG BUT
AS A LITTLE GIRL I WAS SEXUALLY ABUSED BY MY BABYSITTER ALONG WITH BEING SEXUALLY ABUSED BY THREE MEN TWO COUSINS ON MY MOMS SIDE AND MY SO CALLED FUCK UP UNCLE WHICH IS ON MY DADS SIDE AND THE BABY SITTER WAS JSUT A FRIEND OF THE FAMILY
IT LAST FOR A FEW MONTHS MY MOTHER NEVER FOUND OUT TILL I WAS
18 YEARS OLD ..... I FINALLY GAVE UP TRYING TO KEEP EVERY LITTLE SECRET FROM HER I WAS KILLING ME INSIDE I WAS CUTTING AND HUTING MYSELF AND I HATED IT I KNEW THAT CUTTING WAS WRONG BUT IT SEEMED LIKE EVERYTIME THAT I DID IT MADE ME FEEL BETTER ...... I WOULD HYBERNATE IN MY BEDROOM DIDN'T LIKE TO COME OUT CAUSE I THOUGHT THAT IF I DID THEN I WOULD GET HURT I SPENT MOST OF MY TEENAGE LIFE IN MY BEDROOM AND I HATED .... FOR ONE IT WASN'T HEATHLY I WOULD GO A DAY OR ALMOST TWO DAYS WITH OUT EATTING CAUSE I DIDN'T FEEL LIKE IT I WOULD WAKE UP IN THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT CUASE I WAS AFRIAD THAT SHE WOULD BE THERE ...
WELL THAT IS ABOUT IT ...
AS A LITTLE GIRL I WAS SEXUALLY ABUSED BY MY BABYSITTER ALONG WITH BEING SEXUALLY ABUSED BY THREE MEN TWO COUSINS ON MY MOMS SIDE AND MY SO CALLED FUCK UP UNCLE WHICH IS ON MY DADS SIDE AND THE BABY SITTER WAS JSUT A FRIEND OF THE FAMILY
IT LAST FOR A FEW MONTHS MY MOTHER NEVER FOUND OUT TILL I WAS
18 YEARS OLD ..... I FINALLY GAVE UP TRYING TO KEEP EVERY LITTLE SECRET FROM HER I WAS KILLING ME INSIDE I WAS CUTTING AND HUTING MYSELF AND I HATED IT I KNEW THAT CUTTING WAS WRONG BUT IT SEEMED LIKE EVERYTIME THAT I DID IT MADE ME FEEL BETTER ...... I WOULD HYBERNATE IN MY BEDROOM DIDN'T LIKE TO COME OUT CAUSE I THOUGHT THAT IF I DID THEN I WOULD GET HURT I SPENT MOST OF MY TEENAGE LIFE IN MY BEDROOM AND I HATED .... FOR ONE IT WASN'T HEATHLY I WOULD GO A DAY OR ALMOST TWO DAYS WITH OUT EATTING CAUSE I DIDN'T FEEL LIKE IT I WOULD WAKE UP IN THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT CUASE I WAS AFRIAD THAT SHE WOULD BE THERE ...
WELL THAT IS ABOUT IT ...
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Reply #1 04/18/08 6:46pm
I can so totally relate to that of waking up in the middle of the night and freaking out.... good thing is, we are safe now, they cant hurt us anymore. -
Reply #2 04/29/08 4:39pm
That is horrible. I am so sorry that you went through all of that. I self-abuse to, it's a double-sided sword - it makes me feel better in that I can cry and let my emotions out after I do it but it also hurts me so badly to see what I have done to myself. Together all of us can heal from what they did to us and move forward into the beautiful people that we are meant to be and deserve to be. I am not letting my abuser take one more day away from me, she doesn't get to do that anymore.
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