faithless

OK I AM SCARED

Posted on 05/01/08, 05:04 pm

I was putting off joining this group as i though that would be like admitting to myself that i was actually scared. Started my tx four weeks ago, the first few weeks were do=able, but now am getting more than alittle worried. I have told virtually no one as i thought i could cope on my own, my boyfriend is supportive, but doesnt really wanna talk about it, so try not to lay to much shit on him. Am having fevers, sweats and chills nearly every night, which means i dont sleep, which means i cant go to work, now have started getting the most fucking horrendous migraines, cant see, having to leave my car and get lifts. Getting depressed, and i dont do depression, feel like i am just existing not living anymore.

• Reply #1 05/01/08  5:28pm
  
  jjdc
  I know how hard it is friend...I was having a very hard time when I did tx and had to stop at 5 mos. but that was because I was not prepaird for what I was going thru...I will do it again and know that I can't work and make sure my family knows how bad it is going to be because with depression they need to know that times are going to be hard...Last time I just acked like I was ok and I really was not... I will be ready next time...And as for you my friend, if you do tx you need to be able to put what ever your feeling out there so when you come across depression you can handle it better...I had to learn that...I know how your feeling and if you need me I am here for you, just talk to me friend...Pam
• Reply #2 05/01/08  5:40pm
  
  faithless
  THANKS PAM, I REALLY FEEL LIKE I AM LOSING MY HEAD AT THE MO AND HAVE NO CONTROL OVER ANYTHING, ITS JUST RUBBISH
• Reply #3 05/01/08  10:29pm
  
  jjdc
  I understand sister...I don't know if you see a councelor or not but I had to just to be able to talk to someone about my emotions...It did help me alot...I will have everything in motion next time I do tx...I am here for you anytime friend...If you ever need me, just talk to me friend...Pam
• Reply #4 05/02/08  9:56pm
  
  HCVSVR711
  Ok..let me see if I can assist you.
  
  First of headaches..are you gulping as much water as you can? 1/2 your weight in ounces of water.
  
  Are you on anti-depressents?
  
  We are all here to help you so that you CAN cope through your treatment.
  
  I did treatment alone at 51. It wasn't fun but I made it..and I cleared the virus.
  
  Celery is sometimes a good fix for headaches, and when you space out drinking water. Here is the combo link.It was written back when treatment was 3x a week..but the side effects seem to be the same.
  
  For sleep there is Trazadone..ask your liver doc..its for people on the meds to help you sleep.
  
  http://www.hepcsurvivalguide.org/c... << copy and paste this link..save it in your favorites..its all aphabetical..and written rather well and easy to understand.
  
  Feel free to e-mail me
  Bayla
• Reply #5 05/03/08  9:11am
  
  tattman
  COUNSLORS DONT KNOW SHIT! BECAUSE THEY COME OUT OF COLLEGE AND HAVE NEVER WALKED A MILE IN OUR SHOES! THE FIRST TREATMENT I WAS ON I HAD ALL THE WORST SIDE EFFECTS YOU CAN IMAGINE!! I WAS BED RIDIN FOR ALMOST 4 MOS. SO YOU EXP. ARE SUPPORTED BY MINE, JUST TRY NOT TO ALLOW THOSE BAD FEELINGS WANDER IN YA, YOU CAN ALWAYS CALL ME, MY NUMBER IS ON MY PHOTO PAGE !
• Reply #6 05/03/08  12:19pm
  
  jjdc
  Love you all and I totally understand why you feel the way you do my brother...I have ran into some pretty bad counselor myself...Hope your weekend is great...Pam
• Reply #7 05/03/08  7:37pm
  
  scaredgirl
  Yeah I know what you mean about counsellors - I went to one Ph D in psch with many years of experience and told him I just found out I have hep c and he said I was over reacting as he had seen on tv that anyone can get it from drinking water!
• Reply #8 05/04/08  4:06am
  
  faithless
  Thank you everyone. I do actually feel bit better the last few days (cept this morning have woken with a massive lump inside my mouth) bit worrying. Yes, drinking a lake of water a day, got sleeping pills, though not suppose to take them every night as very addictive, and you have to take them 2 hours before you go to bed, how do you know then wether you are gonna sleep or not? I see my nurse next week, so i will tell her how i am feeling. I dont know about the counciller thing, saw a child pscychologist (sorry spelling) when i was younger and dont think that done me any good what so ever, just alienated me from all the other kids, also seen drug councoullers when trying to come off the shit, they were abit better, at least they had been through it. Tat i am in UK and would be difficult to call, but thanks for offer, just keeping talking and knowing i have support from the people here is keeping me going at the moment, so thank you everyone, feel really humbled. Lis
• Reply #9 05/04/08  4:14am
  
  Sapphiretyger
  Okay, I am a counselor, and am a lil bit upset at seeing my profession get slammed. Sure, there are bad ones out there, but there are also some who really know what they are doing and want to help people. I tell you what, we get paid jack shit, our hours are tremendously long, and we are always on call. To top that off, our clients don't always appreciate us, follow our advice, or sometimes even want our help. Yet we live for that ~one~ that we can actually get through to and do some good for.
  Just had to throw in my two cents...sorry.
• Reply #10 05/04/08  8:25am
  
  tattman
  Hey Miss Sapphire, Yes I did slam the counslor profession,due to "MY" own exp's. I will stand beside "ANY" "COUNSLOR" who has been there.done that!! You know the expression? walk a mile in my shoes. Love and Respects sis. Still love me?

For the "BOLD" Truth about side effects during treaments of HCV ! No-Holding Back