My father is a pastor, so I was raised in a Christian home that was centered around God and HIs works. Both my parents are in the church and they dedicate a lot of time to it. I have always believed in God and have been a member of my church since I was young. But since some things in my life have happened, I have really struggled with the concept of God and wondering why I go through all the things I have gone through. I feel like I have a wall of brick, and I clear that away, and there is another wall, this time a bigger one. No matter what I do, and no matter how hard I work, I never make it through. I just want to take a break, but there's no chance to. You can read my journals and see the support groups I'm in if you want to know what I'm talking about in my life.

I haven't been able to go to church for a few weeks because I haven't felt right there. Since I'm questioning things, I feel like church isn't for me. Since I don't live at home, I'm not forced to go to church, so I haven't gone in a really long time. I'm looking for some support and care as I go through these hard times. If anyone has some advice for me, please respond, but please only nice things, I can't take mean things right now. Thanks.

Ellen