DSFan

Tired of it all

Posted on 07/09/08, 09:00 am

there are good days and there are bad days, like today.

I hit this low point and I get so upset at the thought of how selfish him and the OW are. I am tired of feeling it all. I am tired of caring about them. I don't want them to consume my thoughts anymore. everyone says this takes time, but I want that magical day to be NOW. I am so sick of crying. I am so tired of being emotionally drained. Him and OW destroyed my entire life, yet they can be happy and not give a flying f*ck about me.

I am just tired of being sad. I hope tomorrow is better.

• Reply #1 07/09/08  12:05pm
  
  fatallove
  DSFan,
  
  Tomorrow will be better! Just remember that just because he and the ow are heartless and selfish doesn't mean you have to be miserable. Believe in Karma and know that they will get theirs one day too. They are off having a good ole time and not thinking of you (I know that hurts to hear) so why should you waste your time on them? Let them lead their selfish lives, but don't shut down...you live your life too!
  
  Like you said, there are good days and there are bad days (boy do I know what that feels like) and as long as you know that this bad day will end and a good day will come, you will be okay. Hang in there sister!
• Reply #2 07/09/08  5:28pm
  
  gcnsmom
  you know what? Sometimes taking things day by dsy is too much to expect for yourself sometmes you have to take it hour by hour or minute by minute. I know that sounds strange but it is so true. There is no magic to take away the pain and unlike broken bones there is no medication to help relieve the pain. Nothing will help but time and even though it is not right this minute it will be better. Somebody once told me the best revenge is to be better than you were before. Don't be too hard on yourself it will get better just know that you are the better person you did not screw up he did and what goes around comes around. Feel better girl hugs to you.
• Reply #3 07/11/08  11:37pm
  
  dumpedwith4...
  oh they will have to live with what they did the rest of their lives. it will come back on them, believe me. you on the other hand will move thru this as slow as it needs to be and get to the other side and keep on going. i like the term meloncholy. i seems like that describes the emptiness of sadness inside me that seems to linger. this too will pass.
• Reply #4 07/12/08  10:16am
  
  mudflap
  I know da feelin. I've learned it is impossible for me to change other peoples actions, past or present. I am beginning, though I still catch myself allowing the feelings of hurt and anger to overtake the present moment. I'm beginning to allow the truth, that I can't change other peoples past or present actions, to lead me out of my repetitive blue moods. I can change how i respond and do have power to change how I respond to the scr***ed up situation I'm in. You can wean yourself off of the emotional destructive response of anger and hurt. You will begin to feel empowered and good each time you recognize your feelings and choose to respond by not allowing your thoughts to drag you into the cesspool of anger and hate. Hugs to you.

This is a place where you can share what you want and be heard. I hope we can all grow and learn how strong we are. In the beginning we are shattered. This group will help us all learn we have a voice and we are not going to let anyone tell us who we are and what we are supposed to be or believe. Join us in venting crying encouraging yelling educating and telling our stories to one another.