Discussion Topic
why!!!!!
Posted on 05/09/08, 10:26 am
why does it seem that some of us are destined to be alone, why can't i face the fact that it is all my fault i am alone, why can i never feel good enough, why can't i just get a small break, why do i have to deal with these damned panic attacks on top of having no-one, why do i even care after all this time, it don't matter anymore i don't matter anymore, yet i live on, i live in pain on top of pain, i fight i try and help others but i can never help myself. oh well, its life i guess, feel free to say anything, even if its just to get over myself.
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Reply #1 05/09/08 10:34am
I totally can relate to what you're feeling. It's so hard to feel like you're alone, it doesn't really matter who's there with you. A friend of mine told me that no matter how much I felt alone, I wasn't. If you remember one moment, one phrase that made you feel love, that made you feel like someone was there fighting along side you, hold on to that. Choose to believe that someone is with you, no matter how alone you feel. And then make it through the rest of the day. Don't deal with each day as a whole, don't look so far ahead that you get overwhelmed. Each minute you fight brings you that much closer to never being in this place again. -
Reply #2 05/09/08 2:54pm
I don't know why we suffer. I wish it would go away, some people just seem to manage. Each day is a carbon copy of the next. Lonliness, sadness, anxiety...
Iisaw you have dogs, i wish Icould, Ilove anilamls and miss my german shepherds so much.
Are you a parent? Do your kids help, I would love a little person to hold and hug.
YOU do matter, you matter to us who suffer, it helps to know we are not alone in this "Lifemare"
WHY??? I ask myself that every F~cking day and night.
I deal with my own demons, and life is very lonely and scarey.
~A
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Reply #3 05/09/08 2:55pm
sorry for the typo's.. -
Reply #4 05/09/08 9:32pm
nope no kids, no real friends, pets are ok, but it is hard to really get deeply attached because i know at best they only have 12 years or so, you do get attached but they always go, family i have but i always face them with little emotion, cause something always goes wrong, i have my nieces, they are the only things that mat make me smile if only a little, everything is to hard and to far away -
Reply #5 05/10/08 10:42am
Where are your parents? -
Reply #6 05/10/08 9:44pm
I can understand how you feel. I have very similar feelings to yours. I wish I could be of help but just like you I need help myself. But I am wishing you the best. -
Reply #7 05/11/08 7:22am
my parents are about four feet away, i still as sad as it is still live with them, the ironic part is that they are both disability workers, and so was i, i just have a good talent for hiding my pain from them, they know enough, i don't want to stress anyone out -
Reply #8 05/11/08 6:01pm
I think to myself, as I read this, that I too have asked myself many of these questions. I am a firm believer in healing oneself prior to sharing YOU with anyone else... Perhaps that is the one missing element for you, babe. I have fallen guilty of not following this rule myself and it never has paid off.
Never would I say to "get over yourself"... lol... you silly man. That's what this is for... to vent out any feelings that are weighing on you... VENT AWAY... you will get a response. You sound to me like you are very open minded and it makes me wonder as to why you are resistant to change things within yourself that perhaps you are aware need work? It's not easy.. I know as I am working on some areas myself.
Take care...
MJx -
Reply #9 05/14/08 10:20am
I feel the same way you do I am sitting here in pain on a daily basis unable to help myself but, yet I seem to be able to give other people advice. I live with daily panic and anxiety attacks sometimes I feel like there is no hope for me but, yet I still live on. I just want to enjoy my life and find someone that understands me and what i am going through I can relate to everything you are saying it is so damn hard.....
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Reply #10 05/25/08 12:09am
Your on the right track, keep asking "Why" and read your Bible.
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