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Did your eating disorder start in highschool or in post secondary?
Posted on 04/21/08, 12:38 am
This is just to break the ice for any that might join this group. It's an open discussion so people can have support in the harsh situation we all face ourselves in.
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Reply #1 04/21/08 2:30am
My eating disorder started, well; I have always had an eating disorder. When I was a little girl, I was molested by several of my mother's boyfriends. I thought I was alright, until I was 16 and I starved myself for 6 weeks, so that my boyfriend would like me better. I lost 10-15lbs, but when I started eating again, I quickly gained the weight back and I freaked out and began binging and purging. This lifestyle was easy for me because my mother and my grandmother were also bulimic, so it was familiar. I am now 35 and am still struggling with this disease, I am so tired of being out of control---19 years is a long time. I am in college studying to be a nurse, which is extremely stressful and on top of that, I have three children---14, 10 and 8yrs. old. I have never had therapy because of the cost and I really don't want to join a face-to-face support group. This is my next step, to try and connect with other women who are suffering and see if it helps me get myself together. Life is particularly hard right now, I am waiting to see if I was accepted into the nursing program for next Fall, my marriage is fizzling and I am struggling with depression on top of it all. If there is anyone out there who would like to talk, it would be nice to connect. -
Reply #2 04/21/08 4:30am
Wow I'm actually glad someone replied (lol since there are a lot of groups out there). But I'm sorry to hear that jewel. Just know that you are a jewel in the rough. You may not be the shiniest out there but you're shiny because you're here for a reason. If you weren't you wouldn't have made it this far. And although I don't have kids and struggle with that, I still know what it's like to feel so alone, depressed and unsure if you can turn to anyone. That's what's great about the internet. It can support you because other people out there in the world may be facing similar challenges. My mom's marriage is fizzling too and my mom seems to project her anger on me a lot with words and she shook me recently (but I told her I won't tolerate that anymore). I've put up with it for long enough and she seemed to have quieted down so far... What I don't understand is how people don't understand why we do the things we do(binge/purge/starve/overexercise). We do it because we've had no control and in stressful times, (especially for those of us with post secondary on our minds) it can be really hard. >.< -
Reply #3 04/29/08 4:22pm
My eating disorder started around age 8, as a way to calm myself down from ADHD. In junior high and high school, it progressed, and it became the worst it's ever become in college/uni. -
Reply #4 05/13/08 1:27am
Mine started in 7th grade. My dad was verbally and sometimes physically abusive and I started to fall into depression. I actually was a lot worse off then in a sense than now ( I was cutting back then and had a few suicide attempts). I was teased at school and I was taught to follow the crowd so I had to find a way to cope. Basically I was overweight and by the time I ended eighth grade I was 160 lbs. Which I dont mean to trigger but for an eighth grader whose average in height, thats overweight. It just progressed from there -
Reply #5 11/01/08 8:53am
Mine started properly when i was 17 - i first made myself throw up when i was 15 but it became out of control when i was in my last year of high school - and i started skipping school all the time - by the time i left school i had barely any friends left. A classic cause of ED is perfectionism, ive never really been a perfectionist... i didnt care if i passed or failed school exams etc but i remember my ED really flying off the handle when i failed a dance audition - My ED wasn't caused by being a dancer, but its a harsh environment and the dance/musical theatre circuit is competitive as hell... and failure/rejection happens to everyone in that business... its something im trying to deal with.
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