Discussion Topic
oddly Do I Want Recovery, is a prefect topic.
Posted on 06/06/08, 12:45 am
That sounds so naive. Do I want recovery? Its like asking if you want life to become better. However in some way, this depressing/sinful lifestyle (whatever it may be) has been embraced for however long, and has been welcomed in our lifes. Some times we don't know what else is out there, and scared to search or find out.
Has anyone come to conclusions on how to get past this question, and move on to the real recovery?
Has anyone come to conclusions on how to get past this question, and move on to the real recovery?
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Reply #1 06/07/08 9:44pm
I wish I had. I mean... I want to be healthy and not die .But I want to be thin. I feel like I'm losing both ways, y'know? I think it's hard to change, like you said, because we all know ED.... It's what we know. Recovery is some new foreign ground that we're unsure of. -
Reply #2 06/10/08 4:02am
so true...
it makes us feel like we're nothing without it. This might sound really weird, but its like its our bestfriend who has a really bad influence on us and is just trying to constantly bring us down.
Do you guys agree?
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Reply #3 06/13/08 4:42pm
I agree fully.
I want life to be better, and full of happy things, but at the same time... drinking, drugs... etc. has been a lifestyle choice. and its not easily forgotten. so yeah i havent been to recovery in 2 months, but i think i might go back to talk to the lady and see what she thinks.. cuz idk what im doing. -
Reply #4 06/15/08 1:13am
I don't think that I could have said it better.
I was trying to explain to my boyfriend about my mixed emotions and confusion about wanting to get beter. He told me that it didn't matter how much I weighed. If I weighed 120lbs or 70lbs, I still would not be happy until I learned to love and accept myself, and let myself be happy.
It makes so much sense, and it's true, and if I know that then why is it so hard to put that into action?
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Reply #5 06/26/08 3:17am
to me being in recovery equals being ugly coz through therapy I started bingeing instead of just restricting so I'm terrified of it. Do I want recovery? Yes but I just think its not possible for me without being ugly and I'd much rather look normal then anything else at the moment. Besides I really won't be happy to try for recovery till I've lost another 10kg's. Tragic and digusting I know and so vain of me. :( -
Reply #6 07/14/08 5:55pm
just found this group....
what you guys are saying is prety much my life at the moment to....
my counselor keeps saying to me "what are you going to do to overcome this, what actions are you going to take, do you want to recover?"
im battling this question constantly and the longer im underweight the more im getting used to it and never wana go back to what i used to weigh!!
part of me wants to get my periods back, eat regular food, fit in with my friends again and look like a normal weight!! but the ED part of me loves the way i look, loves that my clothes are loose, loves the control and sense of achievement, and is really strugling with even small flucuations on the scales!!
i sound like a freak, help!! -
Reply #7 08/28/08 12:24am
Recovery is really doing everything in your possession to get better. Having people support you, so you don't fall off the wagon, going to therapy, a nutritionist, the doctor,and learning to love yourself as you are, and getting to know who you really are without e.d sticking around. I think this is what recovery is. I haven't gotten better even though I've been doing the above mentioned. Maybe eventually I'll get better, or maybe I'm just getting worse, because I know I can't fight it on my own anymore.
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