Is there a way to fuel this tiny spark within my soul?
It has always been there, but I never cultivate it.
My true interests and desires are put on hold from living life with all it's responsibilites.
There has to be time for me, I plead.
But what do I desire? I have forgotten what I need.
I feel like a robot, going through the motions each day.
My mind constantly races with worry, but I cannot stop to calm it.
The others are counting on me to have all the answers and to hinder their pain.
I am left exhausted and unable to fight my battle of self hatred and the ugliness inside. Once again, stuffing it down and smoldering the tiny flame of my spirit even more.
I seek out ways to release the pain,
through words, images and tears.
The flame grows stronger within me as I share stories of triumphs and as I set goals for the future.
I feel stronger through self actualization and am learning to appreciate the person I am and all the roles that I uphold.
Wife, Mother, Lover, Manager, Friend, Sister, CLown, Cheerleader, and Lonely Soul that's deep within.
I know one day I will WIN!