BoriLee

Hmm!?! Chosen or not??

Posted on 07/02/08, 03:46 pm

Hello all! Nice to meet you!! I am new to posting comments about my self. I had always tried to be reserved for fear of being judged (maybe cuz I have done a little judging myslef) which I have been trying to work on not doing. God has been trying to work in my life for a very long time, and I hadn't let him. Now I am trying to let him and it seems a little difficult to the point that have had thoughts of giving up. It has sometimes gotten me to wonder if I am his child. I try to think positive, and try to say to my slef that I am His and whatever is making me think otherwise is surely because God may have some great purpose in my life and "it" (the flesh or the devil) is trying to keep me from it. I have been trying to read the bible, but instead of lifting me up it was bringing me to feel guilty and unworthy. I used to be very rebellious, and was into drinnking and smoking. From the beginning of this year I made a commitment to quit, and I was doing good, and in the last few weeks I have been doing it here and there. I have been taking time out to talk and to pray with God, but have felt at times that I am talking to my self, even though I have had answered prayers. I have been getting to know my slef without being under the influence of something, and have found I am a very serious sometimes boring person, and found that I am not really someone people want to be around with. I find that I can't be the crowd I used to hang out with becuse I don't want to be surrounded by the old, and when I try to surround my slef with the "new" (older christians) I feel like I don't belong there. Don't get me wrong, God has done great things in my life, and I am very thankful for it, but I sometimes feel like I struggle with thoughts, and soemtimes with being completely honest. Some have said I am too hard on my slef, Well I have prayed for help on not being hard on myself, and accepting me just the way I am and developing the love that God has towrds me. Does any one else struggle with that, or have struggled with that in the past? I listen to Joyce meyers a lot and say to my slef, If God did it with her He can certainly do it with me. To what point do we "do" our part, and let God do HIS?

May God bless you all!!

If you have any questions please feel free to ask!!

Luv, Glenda

• Reply #1 07/02/08  10:47pm
  
  BoriLee
  God is gracious, I was worried to ask anyone, I put it on it just to "put it out there" and I recived answer immediately direclty from above.. check this out, so I went to my Wednesday service to recieve fresh word, we are taken to 2 Timothy 2:11-13
  
  11Here is a trustworthy saying:
  If we died with him,
  we will also live with him;
  12if we endure,
  we will also reign with him.
  If we disown him,
  he will also disown us;
  13if we are faithless,
  he will remain faithful,
  for he cannot disown himself.
  
  then he goes on to saying to stay firm, not to worry, the time is near, my time is coming, but he did say be-careful with denying him... I knew He was talking to me, and what I wrote here today, and immediately I felt the need to talk to him. I came home and just thanked him, and worshiped him, I mean for questioning him which is like doubting him, I denied him, but thank Jesus Christ, and God for sending his son, He is truly gracious, and I am glad that it crossed my mind to skip this service, but I had to be there to recive this answer which had been haunting me.. This is amazing.. I am so happy, He is truly at work in my life, how easy this flesh can make me think otherwise.. but tonights word I think is doing a "teshuba" which is when the word takes a hold in your spirit and it is made true.. OHH HE IS HOLY!!
  
  I am so excited so I wanted to share this just as I talked about the "worries" or "tribulations" I wanted to share what he has done for me, and how he answered my prayers...
  
  God Bless you!!
  
  Luv, G
• Reply #2 07/03/08  9:40am
  
  marie65
  that is so great i struggle too but god will let us know i believe its satan trying to confuse us so we give up
• Reply #3 07/04/08  12:21am
  
  BoriLee
  yes I agree!!
• Reply #4 07/06/08  12:18am
  
  theclowns
  Glenda, every Christian deals with this. And usually on a daily basis through their growth in Christ. Satan has been in control of your thoughts for so long it will take a little bit of time to get those thoughts out of your mind. But never think you are not worthy or that you are alone, that is Satan putting that into your thoughts. You recognize what needs to be changed and many Christians can't see that themselves. I am dealing with this myself right now. Joyce Meyer is such an amazing woman and puts things into perspective that I can understand. You must find a copy of her book "Battlefield of the Mind".
  It is what every person of God goes through as Satan attacks our minds to keep us from God and being able to accept all the glory God has for us. There is a phrase she gives in the book that I have been using this week and it has been working, my mind hasn't been this clear and free in years. Any time your mind is wandering, wondering, cluttered, negative. Say this phrase: "In the name of Jesus Christ by the power of His blood I rebuke the mind-binding spirits." You may even have to do that several times a day but it will work. Most importantly anything you say to ward of Satan it must be said outloud. When you read the Bible read it outloud. Satan can control our thought but he can not read them.
• Reply #5 07/06/08  8:51am
  
  Les39
  Glenda,
  
  I agree with theclowns..you already recognize that which needs to be 'dealt with' (I call) or changed. This is the Holy Spirit I believe making you aware of it, and with no condemnation because Jesus isn't about condemnation. If He didn't judge while He walked this earth WHILE He was here, then much less should we judge others (and I believe that INCLUDES judging OURSELVES, !! Halleluyah!)
  And, anyway, yes I have my own struggles and 'thorns'. We all do and that's where Satan goes for the 'jugular', I think..
  With your case it may be smoking / drinking and with mine, it would be somethin else...it doesn't make it any worse or any better, just our sin nature we still have to live with in this body.
  That doesn't mean we give up on ourselves because God never gives up on us. Keep digging deeper, and remaining in His presence daily.. not condemning ourselves in the process. I know some people have accountability partners to help us to keep accountable to God to others and ourselves... I don't have that yet but I am praying for one, someone I can trust. It's hard to trust.
  I pray you can have an accountability person wherever you live..and that you NOT give up on yourself either.
  That was a good book theclowns mentioned, "Battlefield of the Mind" by Joyce Meyer - EXCELLENT book! I'd suggest you get a copy, too, Glenda.
  Love, and God bless you.
• Reply #6 07/06/08  1:20pm
  
  Stephano
  Non of us are worth of Christ. We are as filthy rags at his feet. That is why we need the blood of Christ to cleans us. Satan is quite busy when you try to live with the Lord. Satan does not want you there. He is a looser. He has lost you and he wants to make you feel guilty. You know you are doing some things right and throwing a dart at the devil when he works so hard on you. Spit in his eye and Praise the Lord.
  In Christ and loving it
  Steven

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