I am not so sure why I feel this way but I am feeling a little lonely. Sometimes being single, then adding in having several chronic illnesses really does add to it. I am still having a lot of trouble with going out to places and such. I would be going out alone anyway since I don't have any friends where I am. I still do not have any local friends anymore. I lost all of them when I got sick and have had a hard time since. So I just wanted to get my feelings out and express how I feel.

I think a part of why I am feeling the way that I do because of being so ill and it is hard to meet people that will understand and can handle that I don't know how I feel on a daily basis as it changes. Ugh....

I was asked out on a date and then I am not sure if I want to really go forward with it. Most of my past dates I am fighting them off and beating them down with a stick lol. However, being single and all. A part of me doesn't have a strong interest to date and then another side wants to be held, and all of those couple things.

Anyway, if you have any encouragement that would be great. Overall I have managing to do well emotionally. It is just today I hit a little snag for some reason.