crzychick

CrzyChicks PULL FREE A THON

Posted on 03/26/08, 03:48 am

I'll start mine:

(I typed a story about myself and a bit of my journey to here, but when I posted it my internet provider went down so I lost it and I just don't have the energy to retype it now. I will do it next time)

Last Jan I started a pullfreeathon on the other site. I did really good using the stress balls and had both my lashes and brows growing in. Until my boyfriend and I had a fight and I took it out on my brows. But I didn't get too upset, I look at it this way. Before I would have been so upset and would have zoned and wouldn't have stopped until I had cleared everything. By being able to stop myself at just my brows is a small victory. I was able to come out of it and quit.

So my official starting PULL FREE A THON counts will be:

Brows: 8 days
Lashes 85 days

Brows are harder for me. It's those spiky ones that I want to get. Once they get past that stage they are safe so as long as I use my stress balls and can stop myself from what I call "petting" (lightly rubbing a finger across the hairs) because if I don't "pet" then I don't know there is a spiky one there to obsess about.

• Reply #221 11/08/08  11:50am
  
  knittinggra...
  THAT WAS HYSTERICAL!!!! too true, too true!
  
  I'm glad you are standing up for yourself and getting some of those notes taken off. And that too, is wisdom...then even if you go somewhere else, it is less likely to come back to haunt you later.
  
  I can't believe they only are giving you 20 minutes! I agree...you must be pretty stable to go through all that sane! chuckle.
• Reply #222 11/08/08  12:44pm
  
  shebepo
  Crzy,
  That's tellin' it ! !
  The Doc's probably wish you were a little dumber and didn't question their authority.
  They just want you to be a good girl and take your medicine!
  
  -Shebepo
  
  
• Reply #223 11/12/08  12:41pm
  
  darbylucy
  That is such a funny joke. And so perfectly captures what we've been saying about the psychiatric field.
  
  
  Good for you for getting that crap removed from your file. And how funny that with all of your diagnoses and file notations your still deemed stable.
  
  Not sure how your doctors billing works, but with a lot of psychs 20 minutes is a higher fee than a 15 minute 'med check' appointment. Maybe tha's what his 20 minute appointment is? Not sure, but it is worth checking into, since with some there can be a significant drop in price for a med check, even though the time difference is negligable.
  
  Be forwarned though: Dont go a minute over the alloted med check time, they will charge you the higher fee. I once had a psychiatrist do this to a client, even though their meeting only went 2 or so minutes over and much of the time was spent while the dr searched for a file he had misplaced. I really enjoyed dealing with that doctor's bill for my client!
  
  Hope all else is well with you; newly married life, hubby's health, the pull-free, ghosts, etc.
• Reply #224 11/12/08  2:29pm
  
  crzychick
  As far as I know it's a flat fee. (MY self pay is $55 per visit) Files are on a computer and he already has mine pulled up before I go in the room. Actually it seems he looks over it before I walk in.
  
  Small town life and all that. You sit outside the office. One patient comes out and then Dr. walks over to the recept. desk and gets papers, goes back into office alone for a few then comes and calls you in.
  
  I don't feel I'm getting jipped in money but I don't think I'm getting any "brain" help. My "case treatment" says I'm being treated for BP and anxiety but he never talks about How's just gives me script for the BP. Won't give me anything for the anxiety tho. Well once gave me an antihistimine??? I understand they help but (benadryl equilent) isn't going to do it. I guess that because I used to go out and party and drink when I was younger. I now know I was self-medicating the BP that they don't want to give me anything stronger. But I only drink 1 or 2 nights out of the month now. Arghhh here I go again.
  
  I would like to try and find a diff. Dr to see but just switching would cost so much. All the tests they do just to see "where you stand". Oh well will put up with it for a while longer then I might just say F it and go off meds. I like me better without them anyhow...lol.
  
  Everything is going good. Ghosts are settled down for now. After I fixed the TV it played with a light in the kitchen for a few days but nothing now. Hubby is clearing up really good. Doing good on my brows, yes I pulled just a couple but they were on the very outside and so not noticable. I'm getting there.
  
  Sitting here with a wet head. Considering coloring my hair, which I haven't done since the week before the wedding and it soooo needs done. My hair grows so fast so the grey is clear down to my temple area in length and looks awful but I've been afraid to color since I've been having the hair loss. But I'm going to HAVE to do it. Can't stand to look at it anymore and plus I have family things to do for Thanksgiving. Time to bite the bullet...lol
• Reply #225 11/12/08  6:52pm
  
  shebepo
  Crzy,
  I was in a big health food store yesterday, the kind with organic produce and lots of everything and there were some all natural hair colors.
  I didn't buy any bcs I can't afford them right now, rather go to
  Walmart and get Loreal for 7bucks.
  I hate the toxic fumes and putting that dye in the environment. But I don't want to go around with gray hair either.
  
• Reply #226 11/14/08  2:51am
  
  Faithwalk1
  Some drugs cause hair loss, is that what happened? I may have missed what you wrote. I've used some topical natural vitamin and herb infused things that have helped it grow.
  
  Happy you are happy with your brow progress! You rock.
• Reply #227 11/19/08  9:49am
  
  Conniewants...
  Hi Crzy!! Hope you're still making good progress on your brows. I don't seem to be able to let mine grow in, they bug me so much that they stick out and feel wirey. I just haven't taken the time/attn to go and buy the clear gel/mascara to get them to lay down. I need to try that. How is your daughter doing? How is your eye and your husband's rash? I hope you're having a nice fall so far. How cold is it there? Any snow yet? TTFN : )
• Reply #228 11/21/08  9:04am
  
  knittinggra...
  A couple thoughts....I am going to try a 'henna' natural color that I got at Sally's for $4......the other natural ones are gradually more, up to I think about $17. But I figure the natural has got to be better for my body......I'm not a big chemical person....
  
  And can you have 2 therapists going at once? See one separately for your anxiety?? Or would that work?? Maybe see them aside from your insurance?? That's probably a bad idea.....what do you think Darby?
• Reply #229 11/21/08  10:47am
  
  crzychick
  First off, yes it was my meds that are causing my hair loss - tho my Pdoc says it's not. I read enough from the support group here on DS and on other sites on the web that say that my meds DO cause it that I'm going to go with my gut and not the Pdoc. So I took myself off 2 of my meds. Would go off all of them but I know I need to stay on a Mood Stablizer...ugh. I did color it and I feel better and it looks good. The color didn't seem to cause any more of it to fall out.
  
  *fingers crosses* Brows are doing the best I've ever done. Today I didn't "draw" them on. To look at them without makeup I don't look like I have many but I used the tip of a mascara brush and went across real easy as to not get the mascara on my skin. Did that a few times and WOW!
  
  So today I don't have on any pencil or liner at all. I just used the mascara on brows and lashes and it looks great. Now if I left the house I would do my liner since I'm so used to seeing myself with well defined eyes. But finally I'm comfortable to be around my family without being "made" up.
  
  As to how I did it. By using the mascara on the brows, when my "spikes" grew in I couldn't see or feel them. The mascara makes all the hairs feel/look the same. I could actually do my brows this way and not have to wash it off and redo for 2 days. (I don't work or leave the house much..lol. So I don't have to worry about the getting ready everyday stuff) I didn't want to pick at them to pull the mascara off because it would leave black streaks if I messed with them. It wasn't as easy as if I just had them drawn on and I could run to the bathroom and fill in the blank area with pencil real quick. Not to mention it makes smeary places on your fingers if you pick. Don't know, this is just working for me. And each time I do it and more hairs show up that is my incentive to keep it up.
  
  As for going to a separate therapist I did that. At the same center I see my Pdoc. But without any insurance I can't do it anymore. She was a bit of a help. But 1 hour every other week doesn't really give you time to get into things once you recap what's been going on thing.
  
  Plus this place pissed me off wanting to pass me around to a different therapist after I had built a relationship with one. Something about Gov. financing and Company guidelines and all that (as to what kind of insurance you have -private or state med card, or none). Bullshit is what I call it. So I'm supposed to go to a diff. therapist, waste who knows how much time and money just going over everything that my current one already knows then trying to go on? And for what, so they can switch me again. NO THANK YOU. Oh I get the "we understand how you feel, but there's nothing we can do about it". Well there is something I can do about it....Not go.
  
  Besides why do I need to go if they deem me "stable"? LOL. THEY are the ones that drive me nuts!!!.
  
  Think I have some issues with this place? Nahhh.
  
  All in all things are good. Doing my X-mas shopping (in my head, been thinking of what to get everyone and searching the web for best prices) will actually buy a few each pay check as I can. Luckly I don't have many to buy for and my daughter is an adult now and I don't have to play Santa.
• Reply #230 11/21/08  1:36pm
  
  darbylucy
  I'm glad that you were able to determine the cause of the hair loss and stop the meds. What meds were they? (soory if you said and I missed it)
  
  It is such a shame how things have gotten with therapists. It is a field that never should have been involved with a corporate- business model and now it is obvious what a bad mix the two are.
  
  I'm sorry your experience with this practice has been so bad. Please let me know if you would like me to talk to some collegues and see if I can find some recommendations for practices nearby you.
  
  

You mean that there is a name for IT? Im not weird? Oh what a relief. This board is for people that are serious about learning all they can about Trichotillomania. Yep that big old long word that is the bane of our world. Trich is tricky. But with knowledge and support of others we CAN break free and live without this disorder interfering with our lives. So lets keep this uplifting and supportive and give each other the encouragement the other needs to make it to that next day.