MediokerKate

New to this group

Posted on 08/29/08, 09:46 pm

Well I am glad to be part of this group. It's nice to know I am not the only one that struggles with self image. I grew up being told I was ugly and fat. My self perception has been something I have been trying to work on. BUt it is not easy. I don't like the way I look. I constantly ponder thoughts of what I need to change when I do look in the mirror. In public I avoid Glass and mirrors where I would see my reflection. I never try on clothes while im out. I literally look at myself in the mirrow twice a day. Once when I get ready for the day and at night when I was my face and crush my teeth. I am very disappointed in my body. Yet working on it.

My fiance has been deployed for a long time and he is due home in 27 days. I have been struggling lately as in my mental state. Constantly worried about my body. Thinkin he won't like me when he sees me ect even though he has seen updated pictures of me throughout his deployment. Just scares me that I might hurt our relationship by being too insecure about myself. I want to change but I don't know how.. ANyways.. thought I would introduce myself and a little of my situation yet I find myself Rambling now.

Thanks for creating this group.

• Reply #1 09/01/08  12:30pm
  
  deadinsidex
  welcome to group hun xxxx
• Reply #2 09/01/08  7:03pm
  
  MediokerKate
  Thanks! :)
• Reply #3 09/03/08  7:37pm
  
  deadinsidex
  i know what u eman about avoiding mirrors when your out i do the same and as for buying clothes i find it really hard because i will try it on and everything looks crap on me!!! just want yah to know i feel the same x
• Reply #4 10/03/08  6:58pm
  
  federalmom
  Hi kate...geez..your so pretty I never guessed youd be here. message me if you need. you have my e mail too I think. Luv ya
• Reply #5 10/07/08  12:34am
  
  lovemoreme
  MediokreKate, you are so pretty. You have the Mary-Kate, Ashley Olson look to you. Your Fiance would be a fool to not think your a knock out. AND deadinsidex your pretty too. I wouldn't think you women would be here.

Body dysmorphic disorder (BDD) is a mental disorder in which the affected person is excessively concerned about and preoccupied by an imagined or minor defect in his or her physical features. The sufferer may complain of several specific features or a single feature, or a vague feature or general appearance, causing psychological distress that impairs important functioning (e.g. occupational or self-care) or social aspects of life.